it was sinve the passing of my mother that ive lost that fullness in life, i feel empty. i lost my mom back in 2000 from cancer, there is not a day that goes by that i dont wish death upon myself. this last year has been a testament to where my life is going. 2yrs ago i fell 20 ft, landed on my head, suffered a severe head concussion and broke 3 vertebre in my back. my life, my thought process, my speech and even my movement was impacted by the fall. ive been wanting to end it all . im planning on using the exit bag with heluim . i have no one to spend christmas with and ive been preparing for quite sometime. i really hope all goes well and this can end my suffering. i have also just tested it, had the bag on and the heluim flowing, after two mins i was really groggy n on the verge to pass out so i tore the bag off. this was just a trial run. the next time , christmas, i wont be taking the bag off
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Oh my God…you are so right. That is so deep. It’swhy I am leaving.
I know for some ppl there is light at the end of the tunnel but its not there for me, I hate almost everything about life and the stuff I do like is only physical attachments. Every aspect of my life is scrappy, not worth living for. I don’t enjoy life. I enjoy thinking about how it will be when I’m not here no more.
It’s not worth it I PROMISE! Please think twice about what you wanna do. There will be one day you will feel better. I was exactly where you are right now and to a point I still am. I tried several times last year to end it all. I’m 34 years old single and never have I been married. I lost my daddy this year due to a bad heart and two months later on father’s day lost my oldest brother to suicide. Last Oct I was raped and from that I have the most beautiful daughter in the world. Im on meds and going to therapy and my life isn’t perfect and times I still think about ending my life but then I take a look at my little princess. I’m here to tell you you will make it thru this. I’m by your side… email me anytime sberkley79@gmail.com
It’s not easy but try to find the bright side of things.
I’m not the right person to talk to about this, because i guess a normal person would tell you not to do it. Im sorry I can’t, and only because I am done with this life. I do know how you feel…I can say that. If it is close to how I feel, I get it.
Yea its weird that I have to semi live the next few days so that I don’t clue anyone in on my plans. Which means going to work tomorrow knowing that it will be the last day ill have to punch a time clock, talk to stupid ppl that don’t give a damn, listen to all the dumb shit in society. I’m just so over this life. Just gotta make it thru Monday and then Tuesday morning I’m checking out
I feel terrible for you. (for what thats worth).
I lost my wife (she ran out on me), and its going to be my first Christmas without a family unit. I have a load of ornaments, will be donating them soon.
Try and hang in there some more. Life is tough for a lot of us and I believe its even worse this time of the year because of how society stresses family/friends, but forgets those who dont have that. Its not your fault. Take some comfort in that.
hope you find peace