I have driven 7 hours so I would not be alone for New Years. I knew how painful it would be to see the person I came to visit. I never imagined just how painful it would be. I got here a couple days ago and outside a few naps here and there, I haven’t slept. I keep asking why I even bothered visiting in the first place. I was invited. She begged me to visit. After a while of her incessant pleading, my depressive self finally gave in. I am madly in love with this woman. I am in her house along with her significant other. I want so badly to leave but don’t because I know how much my visit means to her. It is killing me to stay and watch the two of them. I fake a smile. My loneliness had gotten the better of me. I don’t know why I am writing this. Maybe to get some responses, maybe just to tell someone. This is the most painful experience I have ever had.
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You drive 7 hours to be with a woman who already has a guy?
WTF?
I’d haul out of there, really.
It would be torture…….
Why did she invite you in the first place?
do you think there is a chance she is into you ? otherwise yo
you are setting yourself up for more pain. I would tell her how i felt if I thought there was ever a chance. fight or flight time dude. fight for her or gtfo. either way i think she deserves to know how you feel about her. it would save you a lot of regret i think either way it goes.