I’m new here, just discovered the site.
Well, I don’t like to live. Everything to me seems pointless. I know some of you feel the same way and even wrote it here, so I won’t talk much about it.
Fact is somethings distract me from boredom and depression and suicide thoughts. Going out, getting hobbies, improving skills are some ways to make me feel better. But it always end. I always finish a text, finish sewing a plushie finish writting a poem. But I found one thing which keeps making me… not want to live, but it keeps me from wanting to die.
I make people’s life better. That’s it. I try to be fun. I’m alway gentle and help others. Some people love to live, enjoy life. And I discovered I can make their lives even better. Everytime I see a smile I caused or listen to ‘thank yous’, I feel I’m doing something, not for me, but for someone. And that’s why I live. For the others. I care about them, even if I don’t know them. That’s what keeps me from falling apart.
I wanted to share it and maybe touch someone, make someone feel the same. Most of us don’t like to live and should be better off dead. But if we use our lives to help the people who likes, we wouldn’t be so useless like we feel.
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I want to give my life meaning so bad but I’m chronically fatigued so all I can do is donate to the local animal shelter.Fuc? I wish I could do more.
That’s more than many do. I bet you make many animals lifes better.
It’s a great thing that you can make others feel so happy. Often that’s what I find is keeping me here, yet, it’s hard because sometimes you wonder, like, is it even worth it? I’m sure you know what I’m saying, right?
You can email me if wanted: brl.cents@gmail.com
Good job Leon.
I also feel suicidal all the time, like now. But helping people does seem like a good distraction strategy. I’ll try some of that.
I hope it works, smelting.