I didn’t get anything for Christmas and my dad was at work and I just played video games with my older sister and I kept tried thinking of ways I could kill myself and I was EXTREMELY unhappy…I felt a little happy a couple of  days ago but that happiness disappeared when I went back to school I felt so ugly and worthless and uncomfortable when I was at school…I barely talked to anyone and really felt that my life was unimportant I mean there are HUNDREDS of other kids at my school and they are all either happy or pretty and I feel like a nobody,not that it matters anyways…I gonna try to kill myself soon because I really feel alone and feel like I’m going crazy…I have 2 methods in mind but I REALLY wouldn’t want to end up in a “mental hospital” or in pain so I think I’ll wait till I can get some pills and some other “supplies”…
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You are too young to commit suicide. Your older sister loves you. Talk to her before you do anything drastic. She’ll understand.
It sounds like you might have social anxiety, if your negative feelings are exacerbated by social situations.
Talk to your sister.
Something is causing you to want to commit suicide, and you need to find out what that is. Is it stress? Is it anxiety? Perhaps you have very low self esteem. You need to find that problem or problems and work on them.
Therapy, I’m sure, would benefit you. You don’t have to flat out say, “Hey, I’m suicidal,” but you can discuss what you are feeling with a therapist, or even someone close to you, if you don’t want to go to therapy, like what arizonaguy stated.
@DepressedNihilist I feel so lonely and when I go to school it’s worst and I look like a boy…All my friends are “girly” and confident and have people who talk to them and care (like boyfriends or just friends) There was someone I kinda liked but they were talking to my “friend” It’s not like they would like a boyish,quiet,and boring girl like me…Then I go home and don’t really do much but surf the internet and draw…I hate my hair(it’s very short and it’s an afro and I look like a boy and almost wear the same clothes everyday either a jacket or sweater) and I feel life is pointless and nobody loves me or understands…
It seems that your boyish tendencies really bother you. It’s not that big of a deal. You think about it a lot more than anyone else does. You sound like my eldest niece, who is a quiet tomboy introvert who nurtured a talent for art. She’s currently 21 and working as a tattoo artist, a job she loves.
If you want to be girly, do it. Wear skirts, dresses, frilly things. If you don’t like your hair, change it. It’s only hair. It’ll regrow. Nothing is stopping you from doing these things.
And talk to that boy. The fact that he’s talking to your friend means nothing.