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Do YOU want to enter the military, though, or is this more for their sake than your own? It’s unclear from your post what you’d really prefer. If you don’t want to do it, then regardless, you shouldn’t do it. If you do, then maybe your parents might have an idea of how to help. You should think it over carefully, though. Whatever kind of work you intend to do there, the stress of being in service could take a serious toll on your health.

Yeah, I’ve also had those “I wish someone would just run me over” moments. (Then I think about how the person who would be doing it would feel.) But maybe, if there’s something more you wish you could have in life, maybe you can work on other ways toward the financial independence (you know, nothing extravagant, just enough to be able to live on your own) to be able to work toward something else to put your life behind. I’m sure you’ve probably had many interests you’ve built up over your life until now. A sport, a musical instrument, an art form, a science, whatever. Pick a manageable number of those and put everything you have into them. Worst case scenario you’ve got a good hobby to distract yourself with (and we all *need* a way to distract ourselves from our pain); best case scenario, you’ll be so consumed with your love of that pastime you can find a career in it– a powerful reason to live.