Remember When

Remember when we were kids. Where the only worry was if someone took our snack or pencil or crayon. But now, now that we are growing up. Now that we are discovering bad things. Now that we are knowing life isn’t just happiness. We want to go back being a kid? I remember when I used to be so happy. So cheery. I remember when I used to not worry. I remember when I used to think I would never cut. I remember when I used to never ever ever think about killing myself. I remember when I could cry. I remember when I felt loved. I remember when I felt surrounded by people who care for me. But now I’m sad, pained, depressed. I now worry 95% of my life. I now cut…Just a bit…Maybe not… I now think about death. Would anyone care? Would anyone jump? Would anyone miss me? I now cannot cry because I am so emotionally broken. I now do not feel loved, but hated. I now feel alone. Am I alone? Remember when…