I was on this cite about 3 years ago. hating my life and everyone in it . I met a friend on here and we slowly got better. I was the Highschool cheerleader who dated the football player . So I HAD to be happy .. yes i know fake smiles hurt .. Covering scars isnt easy … and life is hard . I looked in the mirror and felt 120 lbs .. when in all actuality freshman year i was 93 lbs. I thought i was so ugly .. I was stupid cause i brought home all Fs … Â I even ran away from home cause i thought noone loved me . One day I woke up and started lying to myself ( as crazy as that sounds ) I would say I am pretty .. I am skinny .. I realized I wasnt in love with that football player .. people complimented me and rather than saying thanks I said “I know” simply to make myself feel better .. Now 3 years later I feel beautiful .. Happy and have a boyfriend who I want & Love. I am bringing home all As and I have a steady job.. It wasnt easy , and sometimes i do feel ugly .. But it is normal we are human .. Just please if you are thinking about suicide … Â Double think it … your beautiful & perfect .. you just havent realized it yet … accept your flaws .
why would you want to be anyone else , when you could be yourself <3
– Christal
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I’m glad you’re better off now.
My flaws though are unavoidable. Being myself is a crime against humanity.
Good to see you’re better now. But for god sake.. 120lbs is not fat. I hope you never think this way ever again. Stay strong and thank you for sharing your story here.
thank you .