Without Sinning?

I have so much hate in my heart. I hate life I hate the world. I hate my friends. I hate my dad. I hate everything. Like I know its bad and your not suppose to say you hate because its a strong word or whatever but i cant deal with this my mom is being selfish she sees that my life is horrible living here with my step family and my dreadful father. my life is literally hell. i lie im worthless conniving i wouldn’t want to be around me either so i dont know why im alive. i feel that my life is so fucked up that i cant even bring it to God cause he hates me. everything i do is wrong. my only bestfriend her mom hates me and thinks i shouldn’t be her daughters friend and calls me the devil… THE DEVIL… im truly depressed and my dad yelling at me every second of the day is only making it worst. im miserable. i dont have a life outside of twitter and my home. i felt as if my brother was my last hope to just support me and just help me to be strong from my dads constant bitching but he just agrees with my dad and makes me feel like a dumbass. i swear the only reason why i dont kill myself is cause I’ll go to hell. but on the rate im going it looks like im going there anyways. im fucked up. i wish i was either able to do my life over again from like 7th grade or skip 2 years of my life so i can do what tf i want and live how i wanna live and be who i wanna be because this is stressing me out and i feel like im drowning. drowning in misery and pain. im lost and its like no one seems to care or look for me. i have zero tolerance for my life at this point. im 16 years old and im still living the same life like if i was 13. i hate my life. completely. i wanna kill myself. but i will stay around cause i know things will get better. but right now everyone is cut off from my life. i will from now on keep to myself and talk to no one. i barely have friends. they cant hang out with me. because im “the devil”. i am no more sweet Christina. im just gonna do me and be who i wanna be cause this is ridiculous.