I was fairly successful in my attempt.I am seeking help but I am not abandoning the cool people here who have been supportive in the way that made me feel comfort.
I don’t feel any better today than I did the day I did it but I am open to seeing what the immediate future holds… and I guess that’s the point.
Might be losing my job though. I’ll find out soon.
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How did you get out of it?
How did you get out of it?
I got scared at the last second and was too far gone to undo it. I wasn’t afraid to die… but more panicked to lose control of my choice to live or die. Regardless, I ended up accidentally turning up the pressure and blowing a seal which deflated the bag… but it did quickly fill my car. Not sure if I passed out or not. I did feel like I ‘woke up’ and I feel like I don’t remember everything but at the same time I don’t remember passing out or the act of waking up.
I wasn’t sure if I had enough left to try again (or if I had it in me to try again). I did however get to feel the effects very intimately. Such an odd feeling and potentially very peaceful. Almost so easy that it is a method to be avoided.
I should be dead. I now face feelings of confusion and failure. Should be thankful but I’m not that far yet.
Just not asking any more of myself than existing right now.
Wow… Well, I’m glad you’re still here. I hope you’re okay and that you getter better as well.
I’m glad you’re here. Hand on to the little things that are good for you. Like, those cool people. Keep that little spark on.
I’m glad you’re here. Hand on to the little things that are good for you. Like, those cool people. Keep that little spark on.
That’s so scary! Did you suffer any physical or brain damage?
I don’t think I did. Who knows… maybe I have a neat tick now that causes me to sneeze blood whenever a girl gives me a compliment.
Thanks foreverisalongtime and krys, I’m just promising to live day by day.