After 3 years in a new town trying to make something happen I can honestly say it’s only a matter of time, I have about 6 months before my debts are paid off and no debt for my family when I decide to check out. I am a 43 year old male who doesn’t go a day without thinking of topping myself, I am so alone and just can’t seem to get anything happening worthwhile, I have a shitty dead end job and a son living interstate, I know a lot of people will say you have to live for your son but I just hate living, there has to be something else on the other side !
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Dear fireblade,
Just in the statement of saying in 6 months the debts will be paid, sounds like compassion so others do not suffer unnecessary burdens. So we can unleash more of this compassion from within you. In doing so you could hold a key to unlock the enjoyment of life. If you believe you are not making anything happen that is worthwhile, explain to me your definition of worthwhile.
I’ll agree with OnlyLOVEisReal that paying off your debts is quite compassionate… and it’s certainly an accomplishment given some of the economic challenges still going on. You mentioned your job and your dislike for it. Can you go back to school? By the time you finished school, the economy might be a little better and it could be easier to get a job with your new degree.
We’re not that far apart in age… and I have a degree that isn’t the best asset. I’m working on returning to school so I can get a meaningful job that I like… It’ll take time… but I know there will be eventual benefits. I’ve been in similar situations… new place, terrible work… and I paid down my debts in advance of what I thought would be the end. That has helped me… It raised my credit score, for example.
Don’t give up… You seem to have a lot of potential opportunity ahead.