2 days ago, out of the blue, Â i got kicked out of the only place i have ever truly called home. been staying at a place with no room for me. no bed. no spare blankets. ive been using the dogs own – sleeping on the floor. this bothers no one though. im too young – 19. have gone through breast cancer. i’ll be delusional and pretend im okay but when i think about myself i just cant do anything. cant eat either. i havent eaten for almost 48 hours. i feel like throwing up anything that touches my lips. im so tired but i cant sleep. if i go, i dont want to be found. i wanna drive a car off a cliff or put a gun in my mouth.
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Are there Social Services agencies nearby that can assist you? If you’re homeless, there may be some emergency help you can obtain while your application for longer-term assistance is pending. Right now, your heart is probably racing and it’s difficult to plot a strategy for moving forward. Try to collect your thoughts and make a plan. Work on the shelter and food first… Those are among the most critical. From there, you can work on other things. I’ve been homeless before. It can be a huge challenge…. and it can also be overcome. Let me know if I can do anything for you… including just listening.
Dear outandabout,
It seems to me that you are strong and courageous. I don’t know much about you yet. I do know it takes one hell of an individual to take on cancer and kick it to the curb. Life is challenging, and somewhere in you, you need to find that same resolve that destroyed the crippling effects of cancer and is still here to write about it today. Homelessness SUCKS, CANCER SUCKS MORE! You can do this! I believe that.
a real warrior,no dought about it.too much shit,to be that Young.too Young to die,too late to live.
onebullet, it is never to late to live! The desire to live is a mindset much like the desire to die. We just need to find the larger balance that is hiding inside outandabout to desire to lie. Why rush death? Death is an important step we all will take, me may as well take it with the most information and experiences that we can.
I hope you have a peaceful death. I also hope you go to a better place than this disgusting world. And I also hope I can have a peaceful death and go to a better place afterwards.