For the most part in my life I new I was always the problem. But to have it confirm by someone I love. Its the most painful thing to hear. To know you aren’t wanted by no one. Maybe im not meant to be on this plant or any plant to be exact or maybe im here to take the blame for everyone. Im not good at anything it kinda sucks I fail at my medical assistance test I lost my first job because people didn’t like me, I get bitched at everyday for no reason what so ever. But I the reason my parents fight when Im there or around im the reason my boyfriend doesn’t like to be around me, im the reason everyone hate me. These reason my depression kicks in harder than its ever been I feel so alone and worthless im gaining weight and I can lose nothing cause people just like to put me down in anyway they can if it not calling me fat its calling me stupid worthless a nobody. So im a nobody I have no life but clean, cook and just be here. Everyday my mind feels like im moving in slow motion but when I look its like im going at the speed of light. It kinda sound like afterlife-avenged sevenfold. I don’t belong here so what am I doing?
SOME OF MY FAVORITE LYRICS
Shame pulses through my heart
From the things I’ve done to you
It’s hard to face, but the fact remains
That this is nothing new.
I left you bound and tied with suicidal memories
Selfish beneath the skin
But deep inside I’m not insane.
I’m not insane, I’m not insane.
AVENGED SEVENFOLD-ALOMST EASY
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If one person thinks you’re a problem and say it to you and 5 persons thinks you’re wonderful and don’t say it to you, you will notice the first one.
If your boyfriend didn’t want to be around you, why would he still be your boyfriend ?
Why people putting you down is stopping you from losing weight ? most people who lose weight do it to prove those people wrong. How could you lose a job “because they didn’t like you” They’re supposed to hire you to work, not to make friends. Did they really told you “nobody likes you” when they fired you ?
You know, life isn’t a job you’re good or bad at. It’s not like a shcool class you have difficulties with. You can’t just assume you don’t belong in it and then quit it. You gotta find how your misery will make you someone better. It actually IS humanly possible to be someone better. And stop assuming people will bring you down at every opportunity.
It seems like your the victim or yourself here, and I apologize if I’m wrong on that, but your post is not quite clear enough for me to think different.
“How could you lose a job “because they didn’t like you†They’re supposed to hire you to work, not to make friends. Did they really told you “nobody likes you†when they fired you ?”
Trust me… i speak from experience in this matter: it happens. I’ve seen it happen to others, and it has happened to me, more than once. Sometimes people in positions of authority abuse their authority, after forming undeserved negative opinions of people, based on invalid and irrational criteria.
Likewise, i’ve seen people who were totally unqualified, incompetent even, who did not take their jobs seriously at all, performed as poorly as possible, but were not only not fired, but even given raises! Just because someone liked them, or because someone was doing someone else a favor… when there are people out there who are not just better qualified, but willing to “go the extra mile” for their employers, who are either dismissed for almost no reason, or are never hired in the first place… just because someone decided they didn’t like them, for whatever stupid reasons.
It totally does happen.