The Real Reflection.

When one looks at them selves in the mirror, what are they really looking at? Their true selves? Or an Idea of ones self? I have been looking At an idea of myself my entire life. Holding myself on a pedastool, thinking that I am a genuine person with no flaws. But living a lie is what has caused my pain. What I am always looking at is different to another s eye. Over the last few months I have been trying to understand the bad, all the flaws that de-beautify my self image. Yeah looking at the ugly can disgust ones self, but its the steps I am currently taking are harder than one may think. I am heart broken to learn who I really am. But I must look at the whole picture before I can make any alterations for improvement. Sometimes the hoops I have to jump through do seem impossible. And that is where I am weak. Where these hoops are high, I want to take the easy way and duck under the covers. That is when I need support.