It’s not “I’m fine” when someone wants something when you don’t really care, it’s “I’m fine” when “MY LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP BUT I CAN’T EVEN SHARE WITH YOU, YOU WON’T GET IT” and then they end up suiciding.
People in essence lie when they ask how you are – rarely do they really give a shit. It’s just that they don’t know what else to say in such situations. I seldom respond with more than a grunt, “I am” or “I am here.” Lately Ive been saying “I’ve been better. But I can’t remember when or what it feels like.”
We’ll always have frivolous conversation. But lately I wish the people I deal with every day would just shut the fuck up. I know who they are and what they are up to and it’s nothing good, so I wish they wouldn’t put up the facade that they have some measure of respect for anyone but themselves. It’s like the soldiers on both sides of a war – if they had to stop and eat lunch in the same cafeteria the would mean mug each other or just grunt when they pass each other and when lunch was over they’d go back to their respective trenches and shoot at each other. At least it would be real – at least it would be honest.
People suck shit and they act like they have concern for their fellow man. Bullshit. Steep, deep heaps of steamy bullshit. Shit, maybe I’m just tired.
I guess even this situation is different for different people because this really is me. When I attempted several years ago, no one had a clue……they took me at my word…I’m fine……I was so afraid of how people would treat me if they knew the truth….because it wasn’t acceptable in my family to NOT be fine….and I was such a doormat back then. My sister still thinks I should just snap out of it.
This is all some people want to hear….they couldn’t handle the truth (with apologies to Jack Nicholson).
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Im fine is not a lie, it’s just a nice way of saying “No so fuck off” 😉
It’s not “I’m fine” when someone wants something when you don’t really care, it’s “I’m fine” when “MY LIFE IS SO FUCKED UP BUT I CAN’T EVEN SHARE WITH YOU, YOU WON’T GET IT” and then they end up suiciding.
People in essence lie when they ask how you are – rarely do they really give a shit. It’s just that they don’t know what else to say in such situations. I seldom respond with more than a grunt, “I am” or “I am here.” Lately Ive been saying “I’ve been better. But I can’t remember when or what it feels like.”
We’ll always have frivolous conversation. But lately I wish the people I deal with every day would just shut the fuck up. I know who they are and what they are up to and it’s nothing good, so I wish they wouldn’t put up the facade that they have some measure of respect for anyone but themselves. It’s like the soldiers on both sides of a war – if they had to stop and eat lunch in the same cafeteria the would mean mug each other or just grunt when they pass each other and when lunch was over they’d go back to their respective trenches and shoot at each other. At least it would be real – at least it would be honest.
People suck shit and they act like they have concern for their fellow man. Bullshit. Steep, deep heaps of steamy bullshit. Shit, maybe I’m just tired.
I guess even this situation is different for different people because this really is me. When I attempted several years ago, no one had a clue……they took me at my word…I’m fine……I was so afraid of how people would treat me if they knew the truth….because it wasn’t acceptable in my family to NOT be fine….and I was such a doormat back then. My sister still thinks I should just snap out of it.
This is all some people want to hear….they couldn’t handle the truth (with apologies to Jack Nicholson).