There was a poet who said something similar before killing himself… No more words, just a gesture…
Not a good day here either. I really feel so much aggression and angst inside. I need something to punch. Seriously, maybe it would help?
i just want to be dead. i cant live like this anymore… i dont want to be a buden to ppl. i dont want to be in pain everyday, alone…. just always alone. even tho i cant get a moment alone, i feel like the loneliest person ever. i know ill always be alone cuz who would wwant to be with me…. im not someone ppl waant. i should just do it. but i know i wont…. and that makes me feel even more like shit….
you wouldnt beleive me if i told you that other people feel the same way you do, would you? this, maybe more than any other forum, is full of people who feel alone. isnt that why we are here writing, to feel connected? and we are. i cant solve your problems, but i can tell you that things enevitably change…
i know other ppl feel this way, the way of feeling like your alone and alone in suffering like this…. but that doesnt change the fact that i am alone, that i dont have someone to cuddle at night. the fact that most women dont want me, and the ones that might wouldnt give a 29 year old guy living with his mom with only debts a chance. and why would they… things might change, but it becomes numbing to here the same plattitudes for 15 years… if things change, i hope they do before i turn 90… because im still waiting for things to change for the better, im still waiting for the right girl, im still waiting for my time to come, and all those other bullshit plattitudes…. but thanks for trying… sry
Waiting won’t bring you what you seek. You have to put yourself out there. I see a guy with humor and good taste in music. Everything else is temporary.
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…no more Tramodol. Looks like I’ll need an AK, since today is not a good day.
[ICE CUBE’S Γ’β¬ΕIT WAS A GOOD DAY” PLAYS]
There was a poet who said something similar before killing himself… No more words, just a gesture…
Not a good day here either. I really feel so much aggression and angst inside. I need something to punch. Seriously, maybe it would help?
i just want to be dead. i cant live like this anymore… i dont want to be a buden to ppl. i dont want to be in pain everyday, alone…. just always alone. even tho i cant get a moment alone, i feel like the loneliest person ever. i know ill always be alone cuz who would wwant to be with me…. im not someone ppl waant. i should just do it. but i know i wont…. and that makes me feel even more like shit….
you wouldnt beleive me if i told you that other people feel the same way you do, would you? this, maybe more than any other forum, is full of people who feel alone. isnt that why we are here writing, to feel connected? and we are. i cant solve your problems, but i can tell you that things enevitably change…
i know other ppl feel this way, the way of feeling like your alone and alone in suffering like this…. but that doesnt change the fact that i am alone, that i dont have someone to cuddle at night. the fact that most women dont want me, and the ones that might wouldnt give a 29 year old guy living with his mom with only debts a chance. and why would they… things might change, but it becomes numbing to here the same plattitudes for 15 years… if things change, i hope they do before i turn 90… because im still waiting for things to change for the better, im still waiting for the right girl, im still waiting for my time to come, and all those other bullshit plattitudes…. but thanks for trying… sry
Waiting won’t bring you what you seek. You have to put yourself out there. I see a guy with humor and good taste in music. Everything else is temporary.
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