It’s been a stressful week. I’ve got bar exams in 3 days and here I am mulling over how my mother has been acting out like a child with a temper tantrum that my friends have been staying away from me. Instead of focusing on our studies we cried it out this afternoon and missed the first 2 hours of lecture. Instead of being stressed with exams, we were stressed with pressure from my own mother. Instead of helping out she was my most pressing problem. Instead of being my support she is a hindrance.
I can’t take it anymore. Her possessiveness is too much. I can’t do this anymore.
For the first time in my entire life I broke down in front of my friends and confessed how suicidal I am. I didn’t need this kind of problem right before the most stressful exams I will ever take.
My friend said at first glance her brother thought I was a fragile breakable doll. She said she didn’t know I was already broken.
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You’ve a mother, you’ve friends, you’ve school and still sad? You’re such a weak gal.
you have everything… spoiled to the root.
Do you know what it’s like to be a caged bird? I literally cannot go anywhere, I cannot be anyone, I cannot do anything without permission, and permission is still a big if. Yes I’m weak. Yes I’m spoiled. Yes, that’s my problem.
I don’t know how someone can say your circumstances are such that you shouldn’t be suicidal, that you’re just spoiled. Stress is a major source of suicide, when everything mounts up and there seems no getting away from it but you just wanting it all to go away. You certainly have stress with the exams coming up which will affect your future so the last thing you need is a problem with your mother. It’s your life and you have to be strong and try and ignore your mother as it will hurt you in the long term, it’s your life, in the end you’ll break free of her but it’s how you do now with these exams which will determine how things will turn out in your life, don’t let her ruin it. That said, try and be supportive of her but live your live for you, I know it’ll be hard if you have let her dominate you in the past but it has to be done. I hope you can find a way through and pass your exams.
Bunny if you are going to be judgemental than go away. That crap is not wanted here. You don’t have the right to try to make this person feel like their feelings don’t matter. If you have nothing nice to say than don’t say anything at all.
confused.. I am sorry you feel like this. Please ignore bunny, people like that don’t deserve your time. hugs
I am sorry you feel bad… but this will all pass. Nothing is irredeemable about this situation.
Trust me when I say I have made irrepairable mistakes, but this is not a situation that is irrepairable. You have your whole life ahead of you… You can talk things over with your mom, the exam will soon be over, and one day you will move away and you won’t have to deal with your mom. Just concentrate on education and finding a good career and your social life. Those are the things that will matter in the future, not the way your mom is acting right now.