i realised that my days of being treated like crap by half of my friends ends right now. They don’t give a shit about me.. and guess what? i don’t give a fucking shit about them either
they can all fuck themselves.
in other news, i’ve been listening to the smiths basically non-stop and right now my life is just a blended mix of anger and pure sadness. idk for some reason for the past 3 days i’ve just had this unspeakable rage.. and there’s nothing exactly that has caused it ?
i don’t really know if this is better than the “being too sad to move” thing but anyways
Overall i just don’t fucking want to be here anymore and dying has been a reoccuring thought in my mind
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Yeah, the lack of care is really at the heart of the issue though isn’t it. For me it’s the issue in as much as I gave a fuck about them but they didn’t feel the same. When that kind of trade occurs in the end no one wins.
This sorta blew me away from how true this is. In the end it’s sad that i would stay up at night and convince myself that these people really cared and stuff but honestly they didn’t care at all, and It’s really hard to come to terms with stuff like that. Since basically realising that barely any of my “friends” legitimately cared about me as a person just..sucked. And instead of sinking into self consciousness and downheartedness i was just like “lol fuck you guys” and left.
Also i’m sorry about the people you don’t/didn’t feel the same, i’m sure you’ll find people that will give a lot of fucks about you one day (i’m sure there’s probably people like that in your life right now).
Thanks for the comment though, you really put everything that was happening/happened into perspective.