i guess i’ve wondered what people who succeeded on here posted last. did they just stop posting? or say goodbye. I’d rather the latter, I only want to say if i succeed tonight, or over the weekend, that i apreciate everything people have said on here. and i wish everyone on here the best, in whatever you choose, and i hope you do think and make the right decisions.
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Some people have said goodbye but you never really know what happened to them and other people just stop coming on here so you wonder if maybe they got better or they’re gone. Guess you never really know with this website. Do you mind if i ask how your gonna do it and are you sure you want to?
i do want to, and i’m ready. i have letters ready and dvds, things like that for the few people i know. im taking sleeping pills and hanging. hoping i slip away rather than struggle. obviously. i’m ready, for sure, i just hope it works.
Please don’t do it. We care about you.
You sound like a really nice guy 🙁 Can we help you in any way? I think i might go with hanging too. But im scared and i cant stop thinking about everything. Thats the problem with me i over think things its driving me crazy!
The problem with pills is your body will want to reject the poison, and you’ll likely throw up. If the hanging method isn’t properly executed you stand the chance of ending up in a permanent vegetative state. A fate worse than death. People will feel sorry for you because you wanted to die & fucked it up. Not good.
Wait until morning. I’ll bet you can write an awesome song about this experience.
thats the problem, i sound like a nice guy, but i wouldn’t say i am, have made plenty of mistakes in my life. i’ve hurt people in the process. people i’ve loved, thats not a nice guy in my book. it’s ok, i feel ok about it. yeah, i get that, but i think me over thinking has helped me work out a good way, and how to do it properly.
and yeah, with pills and poisons you need a Antiemetic too, so you dont throw up.
oh i have wrote plenty of songs about this sort of thing, over and over, just too many ont he subject for one person.
You don’t have to make the same mistakes you have in the past.
@ bamuel; Everybody makes mistakes. Doing so makes you human. You haven’t once claimed to be a god or a superhero. Permanent solution to a temporary problem? Keep on rocking, brutha.
I think i would’ve already killed myself if i had my own place or at least a car but i dont so it makes it kinda hard. Its so sad that we’re all here on this website all feelin horrible and wanting out. Especially when you see how young some of them are 🙁 (hugs)
i do make the same mistakes, thats my problem.
i sabotage everything good. the hardest thing in this world is to live in it.
i don’t think i’m god but i’ve been known to wear my boxers over my jeans now and again :P. that phrase is true in a alot of cases, but how temporary is temporary, it’s been to long to call it that, it’s full time! but i’ll rock forever 🙂
it is bad, were all quite young relativly speaking, but we have lived a hard life in our eyes, the problems we faced are too much for us to handle. it’;s the way it goes, i guess it’s a balance thing.
You can learn to not make the same mistakes.
Yeah, its selfish to try and talk someone out of exiting. I suppose misfits like other misfits, and hate the idea of another “like minded individual” leaving. The gang just loses another member. I’d say wait until morning Bam, do it after coffee, bacon & eggs.
i wish i could, but i havn’t, and it’s been years.
i know, i feel the same, but you still try to help, and thats why i made this post, so i’d said that i apreciated what everybody has been saying.
i’ve waited so many mornings, i hate seeing the sun come up, some days i just wish the sun would never show it’s face. it’s Adam by the way, ha.
I really believe that you can enjoy life.
i wish i had your optimism. don’t lose that! if you can have it, keep hold!
I know you can get better. Please call a hotline or talk to someone.
OK. This doesn’t make you a Vampire. (Hating the sun)
Dude, you’re still a kid. Just say FUCK IT to the world and do your thing. You play guitar, you bring joy to others. You’re not evil. Tortured yes, evil no. Artists typically are (the greats at least). Why don’t you try and go insane first, after recording a bunch of albums? Get rich and leave the world your musical legacy……turn 70…..THEN do it? I’ll shoot heroin with you 50 years from now. Deal?
@bamuel im like a vampire too i sleep all day and im up all night. Im always in my room. I barely leave the house anymore. I’ve become such a hermit
i get enough vitamin D. i only like the sun if i’m with people. just dont have people to go out in the sun with.
i am a kid, 25, but then i dont think id last to 70, i figure if i dont do anythign and live, id get to 50 maybe, so im half way through now, and i’d have to start again, i dont see the point in that.
ha, i’m not a drug guy, how about the classic pass out drunk and choke on your own vomit, lol.
@crying on the inside. yeah, sleep all day party all night, stay young forever, it’s fun to be a vampire.
shame i don’t party all night though, and i can’t sleep either, also i couldn’t handle living forever…obviously, lol, na, maybe it’s not so fun, good film though (lost boys)
Choking on your own vomit leaves you with bad breath. Who the hells gonna kiss you after that?
Even if you only live to 50, you can still create new songs.
Vitamin D? Thats in Marlboros, right?
Lost Boys= Death By Stereo
@bamuel yeah i dont party or do anything these days. All i do is sleep when i can but yeah sometimes i cant or i watch tv or go on my laptop. Yeah i remember that movie. Oh and im 23 btw i’ll be 24 this year. I just hate all this and really wish i was never born 🙁
well i’d be gone, no one to kiss then anyway, ha.
i can, but i have no motivation to even pick up my guitar and enjoy it.
i have no idea if it’s in them, but i see the sun enough to get enough vitamin D from it, i’m not that paisty, lol.
@crying on the inside. yeah, i just watch stuff on my computer, it’s got all my series on it, easier than going through my dvd boxsets. yeah i’m actually 24, but 25 in july, so close enough. yeah, you should watch the butterfly effect, the directors cut version anyway, if you’ve seen it, horrid ending aint it, but completly describes how i feel. and i think you to with what you’ve said
@lucy4: one of my favourite lines! or “how you enjoying your worms michael?” “maggots michael, you’re eating maggots”
I’ve only ever seen bits and pieces of that movie i’ve never sat and watched the whole thing. It looks like a weird movie
it is a weird movie, but does speak loudly at the end, should give it a go, it’s not amazing, but does have a message people on here may relate with
hey bamuel; just got back. Listening to Killing Joke now. Ever heard of them? Also Pennywise before & after KJ. Music has always saved me, personally…
Went across the street & got a 12er of Newcastles. Listening to obscure British 80’s music now. (Lifts the spirits). Next is LA 90’s punk. Who’s more pathetic? HAHAHA Stick around bam, you’re not alone…..
@Bamuel. Not to guilt trip you, or to change the mood again, but I’m a teenager, and I feel the same way a lot of the time too. Right now I’m in a good mood, listening to music tends to do that. (like lucy4 said). But, if you go through with your plan, you’re setting a terrible example for me. I want to believe that I can feel happy in the future. I want to think that I can forget all the things that I did, all of the things that hurt me that I probably didn’t deserve. I want to burst out of this half-life and explode into a lively person that can love her life, love other people, and love the world. Please, if you can, try to get through tonight. Try to wake up tomorrow and see the sun as a good thing. Try to think of how you’re lucky, even if you don’t think you are. At least you’re healthy? Or at least you seem to be to me… Anyway, I didn’t mean to be excessively sentimental, but you could be a shooting star. You could be a rock hero. You could be an example, of a person that was strong enough to live, despite all the pressure. I hope this inspires you, and doesn’t make you feel worse, that wasn’t my intention. But I wish you the best of luck, and I’ll understand if you don’t listen. But believe me, all of us misfits do care, even if it seems there may be no one out there, there is.
bamuel: you still here? Say something. Shit. People care. Talk