I need your help about suicide knot.

i know u about as well as i know God; which is not at all; in fact if u want to really know mine own mind of the fucking thing; i often question his very existence…..i feel it’s quintessential to establish this fact first, because i want you to know and fully understand i mean NO disrespect in regards to what i am about to say;but do u not feel as though posing this question, at the very least, makes anyone who offers you sound advice towards the predicament which you currently find yourself in, a complacent abettor in this act, and at the very worst,a coadjutant “silent partner” if you will, and hence, culpable for any hypothetical misuse of information divulged by said person…..So, in conclusion, and in the great words i imagine many a swarthy bartender, and perhaps the odd heroin addict, or maybe an alcaholic blues man hath spaketh fore nigh;this ain’t the place yer lookin fer, brother; try a sailor; or a boyscout (i’d imagine only the bluesman or heroin addict would say this last part….except maybe if u asked a homophobic bartender where to get some strange)…hope this at least cracks a smile (maybe?) n if u ever wanna talk, fuckin email me; i have a very sympathetic ear, but a hard hart