Why do I feel like everybody hates me?
I haven’t even done anything wrong
All I do is care for other people…
And of course it’s shoved back In my face.
I really hate life, I annoy everyone I know
What’s going in my head?
All I think about is death, my death
When it will be, how it will happen,
I really don’t see a point in living
Wish someone would murder me, poison me?
It’s even sadder that my best friend is my blade
Was doing so well till tonight, 7 days free
But yet again, I fail. Can’t do anything right
I just want someone to care for me!
That’s not to much to ask for is it?
I hate life so much, why do I think like this?
I’m always down and paranoid
That everybody wants me to do
I should just do them all a favour and hang.
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dont i dont hate you
Thanks
Nicola, no one hates you. Are there signs being posted saying this? Can you actually prove it….I would say not. People are too caught up in their own drama to think about anyone else but their own stuff.
So , go easy on yourself. While you’re taking it easy on yourself, realize YOU are the one who has to love you…be your own best friend, defend you, fight for you….YOU, everything begins and ends with you. It’s beautiful that you care for others but you if you sacrifice your own ability to nurture and care for yourself, you’re not any good to yourself or anyone….you come 1st and there is no one that could punish or hurt you for believing and living that way. You need to go inside and correct some of your beliefs. Be guided by the love you have for yourself…and act from that place. I look after what I need to do for myself first, then if and when able, I help….are you helping so many people cause you’re afraid of not being accepted or loved?…that’s fair…many people, including myself acted that way. Fear nothing…love yourself. A lot of us were never taught the optimum way to go about life. It’s time for Nicola…just you…when you get right with you, you’ll have a better idea of how to proceed. You have done everything right up til now, because it brought you here to realize that, this has all been a lesson for you to learn from-that’s a good thing…All the best!