Anger and hopelessness

Lately I have been feeling very angry and hopeless because of the way people are in my school and in my life generally, there is a lot of lying from the teachers, racism between local students and expatriates (I live in the middleeast), and uncaring attitudes from everyone, an absent father, and my mother who loves to attract negative attention. I am hopeless because I feel like i am bound to this life and these stupid ignorant opressive people and i can do nothing about it. I’ve thought about suicide, researched tons of possible ways to do it, but i have yet to attempt anything. It’s on my mind all the time.