the main thing that holds me back from suicide is that my close family an friends have already experience 2 in the space of 5 months. its because i know the pain. i will never agree with my sister when she says its selfish. it is not selfish.
i will never agree with anyone when they say a singular person does not have the balls to do it, we do
i want to overdose every single day of my life
i dont understand the world
generations have changed things and we are moving for the better and also slowly for the worse, we dont know how to live. we dont see things right. we dont understand anything. love is not real, love is something we have named which is a feeling of safety, we only cry at funerals because we will never feel that safety again, because are drowning in self pity. i drown in self pity everyday.

i dislike the way i look, i dislike the way i speak to those around me, i dislike how i cannot comprehend anything and the only way to find out is if i die

i want to be with them i dont want to be down here on earth trying to figure things out