why does it feel like i did something wrong. Why wont this feeling go away. Im breaking down inside. I feel like a mess. I dont know what to do with myself anymore. I just want to cry. Or at least drown myself as i planned. Why does God hate me? God what did i do wrong. Everything seems fine but i know its really not v- v. What can i say i dont even know anymore. I dont even know who i am anymore. I just want to leave forever. Im sorry if i have to hurt people for it. I just need to let go of everything that is happening. I need to let go with all the laughter and fake smiles. It hurts alot to pretend to be happy. I just… want to hide. Be trap inside a box with nothing in it. Leave everything to the world. Let everything burn or die right infront of me. :/ i guess…. v- v i dont know what to be invovle or do anything anymore.