A beam of light
touched me today,
thru the night
from so far away.
– – – – – – – – – – – –
Straight and true,
so warm and bright,
the beam shone thru
making day from night.
 – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
Thru my world
of dark and cold,
this light unfurled
a warmth untold.
– – – – – – – – – – – – – – –
To guide my soul
and show the way,
to make me whole
and feel okay.
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Another beautiful poem that made my day 🙂
I hope this beam of light keeps shining through 🙂
That’s 2 smiley emoticons- I’m feeling generous today.
@vmy – Hi. Thanks. Ha, the more smileys you give, the more you get 🙂 🙂 🙂
Haha, thanks 🙂
How’s things been going for you?
better thanx. You can tell from my post.
How ’bout you? You seem well today 🙂
Haha true.
The day started off rough but it got better as night came- it always does- but it’s ‘late’ at night that I feel the worse too =/ … mostly because I’m alone with my thoughts.
I guess the day’s just starting for you over there. I hope it’s a good one!
Yeah, I don’t like being alone w/ my thoughts either. Kinda scary.
You must be close to “retiring” eh? Get a good nights sleep if you can. If nothing else it will help restore some strenght so you can keep fighting.
the day is new here. We will see what it brings.
I love sleep so much because when I’m awake, life tends to fall apart.
But unluckily for me, I have really bad insomnia so life tends to fall apart 24/7.
Not only that, but all the meds I’ve so far tried don’t work real well for me- diazepam (Valium) gives me nightmares, Ativan just doesn’t work, seroquel makes me super hungry (I end up wanting to eat than sleep!) and as a last resort, the psychiatrist prescribed me clozapine. It’s an anti-psychotic but apparently has sedation properties. That was the worst of them all- I suffered all the side effects and in the morning, although I “slept,” I’d feel worser than ever.
Sorry for the long medical report- it’s just, I’m so frustrated! It’s around 8.30pm now where I am and I hate knowing that tonight I’m going to be lying in bed alone with my thoughts and that they’re not going to go away.
And to anyone else who’s reading this: any advice on good meds for sleep? I could really use it.
Anyways, hope the day brings good things in good ways 🙂
Thats awesome! :]
@vmy19
I can’t think of any good meds of the top of my head for insomnia as I refuse to take prescribed drugs for anything. But have you looked at natural drugs? or things like diet can really affect the way we sleep, if you drink caffeine or the like, stop completely. I did this sometime last year and did not realise how much it was affecting me. I use to, almost always every night wake up after only a couple of hours of sleep (if it was even sleep) amongst other things.
Don’t know if you have seen fight club but the doc suggests chewing “valerian root”
Oh and great poem by the way 🙂
Wow. Very good. I had my beam of light too, only that it seems like it’s getting thinner every day. Keep being happy FTS.
Very nice poem, FTS. It’s really an inspiration to me, seeing how positive you are… coming from the lowest place. I’m hoping that beam of light will guide you all the way up the ladder, or at least remind you which way is up if you forget.
Vmy – I’m with wasted… those chemicals will mess you up even worse. I also have bad insomnia, coupled with a lousy schedule that doesn’t allow regular sleep patterns, so I have to trick my body into sleep.
Trick #1 – carb out. Eat a huge bowl of something starchy like rice or pasta. It’ll knock you out faster than chloroform.
Trick #2 – sugar/caffeine crash. 4-6 hours before bedtime, drink a ton of coffee w sugar in it. You’ll be really wired for a while but then you’ll suddenly crash & pass out.
NOTE Both of these ideas are pretty awful from a nutritional/diet point of view. In general you shouldn’t eat before bedtime because your digestive system is inefficient. And caffeine just sucks all around. But sleep deprivation is pretty bad for you, too.
Wastedlife: I’ve tried valerian root boiled in hot water but it didn’t seem to work, plus, it stinks lol. I’ve had a go at some natural ways like doing calm stuff (reading, listening to calm music) an hour before bed, breathing exercises, drinking warm milk and tea, listening to soothing, calm music and many more! It doesn’t seem to work 🙁 my diet is relatively healthy (my mum is an organic health food fanatic) and I don’t drink caffeine much except for the occasional mocha- and that’s a regular size in the morning. I’ve tried so other natural meds like CalmsForte but that’s useless on me.
Thanks for the suggestions though.
Scooby: yeah, the chemicals are probably not that good for my body and I don’t actually want my body to end up having to rely on them but it seems everything else isn’t working.
Insomnia sucks. The tiredness is bad enough but being alone at night with all my thoughts is scarier.
I don’t think my mum is going to let me carb out. She’s kinda strict when it comes to diet, but out of curiosity, how long before it does knock you out?
As for sugar/coffee crash- I’m personally all for it, it just a matter of getting my mum to let me. It sucks being 15 haha.
Thanks for the suggestions but tonight seems to be another sleepless night =\
I hear ya on insomnia. What sucks even worse is when you’re in a house with other people blissfully sleeping while you’re wide awake & going mad.
The carb thing works pretty fast for me, I’d say half an hour… even faster if I take a hot shower right after eating. I bet it’ll work for you too, especially if you’re not a heavy carb eater in general. I think it basically overloads your digestive system, your body sends blood to your stomach so it can work, and that makes you drowsy.
It sounds like your mum is good with diet/nutrition. But jeez, the whole point of being young is to eat junk, do stupid things & have fun.
I have a weird theory that eating healthy will make you extremely aware. Sharp senses, keen insight, active mind. That is NOT good for depressed people!!
*sigh* I know what you mean =/ I can imagine everyone in the house fast asleep and beautifully unconscious and here I am- wide awake and scared of my own thoughts.
My mum doesn’t believe in eating too much junk. She’s all or the health food stuff. Like just then, for dinner, she made me green tea soba noodles (not very tasty honestly…) and apples, paw paw and carrots all blendered together for a fruit smoothie (yuck…). Only on Sundays do I actually get to eat ‘proper’ food- I mean ‘proper’ as in we eat out so I can eat normal stuff. But I’m all for doing stupid things and having fun 🙂 I use to be heaps fun and have great times with my friends but it’s hard to be happy when your body wants you to be sad (or is it my mind?)
I like your theory on eating healthy- it’s true; eating healthy gives you this “boost” where you feel better than when you eat junk but eating junk or me is like a good excuse as to why I can’t get out of bed. Like- “I ate too much chocolate and pizza last night so I have a reason to be sloth-ish and lazy today.” When my mum goes to Jakarta for the week I do that. It’s good.
Next time she’s gone for the week I’m going to try carb-ing out. Seems like it works well for you.