I hate everyone.
When I used to say this to my counselor he would ask, “Who DON’T you hate?”
I could sometimes throw out a name to please him. Usually someone I wasn’t that well-acquainted with…but I’d realize that I was lying, these people were equally annoying, equally self-centered, they ignore me just as much as everyone else.
I only found one true exception. He once posed the question again–“Who DON’T you hate?”–and I responded, “You.” Because he was the only person, in my entire life, that hadn’t neglected me. And even though it was his job to do what he did, it was still the closest thing to any kind of positive relationship I had ever really experienced in my life.
But right now, I hate everybody. No exceptions.
I hate everything.
Once I said this to him and he replied, “Even puppies?”
I laughed.
Then I said, “Yes. Even puppies.”
I hate everything. No exceptions.
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well maybe i can change that and u wont hate everyone or everything u should email some time and we can talk
Man I’ve been there. It’s tough to be in that place. But I got out by changing my way of thinking and opening up myself to all the good and bad influences that exist in the world. With an open HEART and an open MIND and super duper WIDE OPEN EYES I saw what was wrong and eventually I learned to let go and just live. It’s still hard from time to time.
Hey just keep in mind to always go at your own pace. Only you can change what’s ‘corrupting’ you. But if you need support everyone here is always willing to help when they’re not too busy with their own difficulties that beat them down in life. =)
Please don’t save me…maybe we should sometime. I dunno. I’ve never really talked to anyone on this site outside of comments, because I feel like we’re all so fragile here that the smallest mistake can break any one of us if we were to form any kind of relationship. But maybe talking to someone who understands would be worth it…I don’t know.
Umbra, that’s true. But I feel like…I feel like there’s only disappointment when I attempt to enter things with an open mind. I’ve striven for neutrality lately because it’s the least hurtful way of approaching things…but there’s still pain. It’s unavoidable. I just don’t know how to deal with pain. I don’t know what I need.
Longtimegone! I happy to know we have something in common and I would like to get to know you more. Cause I don’t know really anyone with our background that thinks or feels the same way I do
Hey, Broken 🙂 Yeah, I was going to comment on that other post, but I didn’t want to shift the focus away from others’ issues. I’m Muslim–technically–you?
Yea same technically hahah but personally I believe nothing. My dad always throwing stuff on me because it’s what Allah wants me to do. Fuck that
Omg. The “You can’t do that, it’s haram” thing? I want to shoot myself in the face when I hear that sentence now…
Or you need to cover inshallah cause we don’t know if are gonna die tomorrow it’s my job as your father Allah tells me if you don’t pray to kick you out of the house! How old are you?
Well, the covering thing I do anyway. I started wearing a scarf freshman year of high school (my parents actually told me to wait, I was more religious than they were at the time so I did it anyway), and I rolled with it even after I became really “blah” about God because I stated self-injuring the summer before sophomore year of high school and it was too convenient, haha. I’m 18 now…you?
Freshman year is when I said eff it all I refuse to do it unjust say inshallah so he’ll leave me alone for a week or so I’ll be 17 in October
Haha. I literally only still wear it because nobody EVER suspects me of self-injury because of it. Like, never. And anyway, you know Arabs. If I were to stop wearing it, people would talk…
Sometimes I think being a Sufi would be cool. Screw all these rules and restrictions. Just find a connection with God and be. It’s a beautiful concept…I’m just too much of a cynic to succeed at a kind of faith that’s so…open.
I think God exists. Just maybe not in the restrictive form that our parents raised us to see…and ultimately hate.
I live in a place with like no arabs thankfully. You should def. Email me girl brokenburden94 @ hotmail. Com no spaces!
Oh, God. Where I live it’s full of them. And I’m related to half of them…
Will do 🙂
Haha my relatives live here too they are all sluts it’s quite amusing
Wahaha. Mine are just…bitter. It’s annoying because I can’t do much without it getting to my mom somehow. Grrr.
Dude same! I feel like my dad has spys planted all over town!
Yeah, my mom’s making me go to a certain college because she knows people there who can keep an eye on me. I got into MIT, but she wouldn’t let me go after all the fucking work I put in. Fucking aoiweaoalsjfowoq89. But at least I’m dorming elsewhere. Better than being a commuter student in this black hole of despair.
Dude my parents are making me go to community college so I cam be home. Weird my moms whole family is from Wisconsin…. What if we are related. Hahahahaha
Oh shit, hahaha. What if we are? We probably are, if we’re both Palestinian, since there’s so much inbreeding it’s ridiculous.
I got out of the community college thing because I literally threatened to kill myself if they made me stay.
Shame of daughter being away from her parents, or the shame of a daughter who committed suicide?
They picked the first.
But that doesn’t mean they won’t have to face the second at some point.
Man that’d be hilarious can we be best friends? Alright awesome. Fuck it do you have a cell? Here’s my number girl. 5407604416
Sweet, thanks. 🙂 I e-mailed you, btw
I’ll check it right now!