I composed this e-mail to my counselor but decided not to send it…for obvious reasons. I dunno. I feel so lost without his guidance. I wish someone more permanent were there for me.
Mr. –,
Chances are you’re not going to read this e-mail, anyway, since even though you told me that I could e-mail you over the summer, you forgot to mention that you would never read or respond to anything I sent.
I’ve decided that I am not making it to the end of the summer. I’ll be gone by mid-July. I don’t have to worry about you calling home because chances are, you will never read this e-mail.
Fuck you.
Thank you,
[longtimegone]
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I don’t know why I bother sharing on this site when I know that nobody gives a shit. I wish someone would kill me.
You may think no one gives a shit, but I can assure you I do. Yes, I am depressed. But I do not find myself heartless. Knowing someone feels the same pain I do, it hurts. I don’t want anyone to feel like I do.
Where’s the consideration of his behalf? He might his own issues. You could raise your concern when you speak to him next. Why be so quick to get angry?
Hey now woman I read it. Even if I don’t reply mostly because I don’t know what to say. Mid July. Man lucky you don’t have to fast! Haha sorry now is not the time for jokes Anna. But yeah cmon now I’m here for ya. After all who knows. You could be my third cousin on my fathers side twice removed but then related toe on my moms side cause your that one guys cousins father daughters husbands sisters kid
hey weird and often incomprehensible thoughts. it’s me psycho~*****. i’d like to play the betting game with you again someday. we’re both sick and i just loved to hate things with you. you and i hating random stuff. sweet.
unbecoming…Yeah, I know I shouldn’t get this angry. I guess I’m not really angry at him, just more at life in general. I haven’t said anything angry to him at all because I’m aware that he has other obligations…in fact, he has no obligation whatsoever to help me. He was a school counselor from my high school. First of all, it’s summertime, and second of all, I graduated in May. I’m just upset that nobody’s ever really been there for me long enough to make a significant enough difference, though the three months that he helped me were really good and really did steer me in the right direction for a while. I just need guidance longer than that, and my parents won’t let me get help. I think I’m also angry because I would like to think that he would at least, I dunno, check on me, since he knows how severely suicidal I am. Especially since I’ve told him that I’m at my worst in the summertime. Oh, whatever…
Everyone else…thanks. I’ve just been really bitter and isolated lately, and it’s taking its toll on me. I guess I don’t really mean a lot of the things I say…to be honest, I don’t think I will be gone in July. Unless it’s the end of July. Maybe the end of July. I want to see HP7 first…:P
It does suck that you don’t get more of the help you need. I am pretty pissed off with my life in general too. HP7 ftw!