I thought I was doing good. I was feeling better for a week but it wasn’t just on my own. I started talking to another girl. She was pretty, and we talked great all week. Sending pics back and forth. I was still keeping my guard up, just incase we stop talking. Well I finally met her in real life a week later and I felt like more of a man again. Like I guess thats what confidence is, feels like.. My two feet on the ground, a skinny regular guy, another person a part of this world. Doesn’t matter if I’m rich or poor, or special. I didn’t feel extra special or anything. But I did feel better, and didn’t let my thoughts run wild. Just incase, well the meet up at starbucks was great, hung out for a couple hours no pressure. Before we left eachother, I asked if she wanted to go out again. A date for dinner. She thanked me. I know I could be just thinking too much into it
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This is such good news. You know what? One week of normality gives you what you didn’t have before that…one week of normality. Take the win, and when you crash (cause it will happen) take heart that you can have another week of normality. Then you can start stringing them together for multiple weeks. And if something happens and you feel like you life has gone to utter shit…you still have those weeks of normal. They don’t get flushed because you had a bad time of it. They are always there. It is a process. Be kind and gentle on yourself. You are doing really well. And if you stop doing well next week it is okay too. Humanity at its finest and you have a beautiful soul.