Darkwillow; just take easy smooth breaths to the best of your ability. In, … Out, … Repeat. What caused this onset? If you’d like to discuss it. We’ve all been there in some way or another. You’re not alone. I will be your friend, I stand on my word.
I’m a whole other story. Right now I can’t sleep. I laid in darkenss for an hour, then jumped back on here for a breif moment again. I will save me for tomorrow, when I post my story. For now let’s focous on you. If that’s ok.
Sorry if I take a while to reply, I will be back tomorrow, if I can’t reach out I will post with your name as the caption to continue where we left off. I might pass out at any moment. I’m running on 3 hours of sleep today.
Caused? Nothing much, just extreme anxiety and mass introversion. So i got out of highschool almost a year ago, sat alone every day, rarely said a word to anyone, and now I’m out of school. i work an extroverted job because no one wants to hire someone like me, i work under my dad at the moment. I don’t want to say i hate it, but it’s just not a fitting environment for me. I like small quiet places, not construction sites, everyone’s always yelling at each other, the blaming is so terrible. I don’t feel the pay is worth is either.
But going home from such a hard job and then what do I do? The normal hobbies, playing pvp in guild wars 2, piano, rpg maker. But eventually, after repeating this process every single day, I start to get lonely. Sure, I talk to people at work all day, but I don’t really care for them. and it just destroys my anxiety to talk to them in the first place. Not only do i have a quiet voice, i also have a speech disorder.. So surely i could talk to friend or something.
Haha, friends.. funny.. I’m not saying that i have nonnneeee, Just that it doesn’t seem like they reallyyy like me all that much. And sure, you could say that they probably do, and that im overthinking, and thats partly true, all i do is think about it.
And so im sitting here refreshing social media and typing in rants because i have nothing else to do with my life. I don’t know how i can go to work tomorrow like this.. Its been a while since ive been this bad.
Goodnight though. You don’t need to reply now, or ever really, im probably going to bed anyways. Dream about flying hippos, they’re pretty cool.
I’m a lonely son of *****. I have discovered that in life > when the smoke clears we really are just left standing alone. dealing with our own issues and not many people out there that care.
its sad. Life can be sad. Well I have become good at entertaining myself and chatting on the Internet on places like this on the web. that helps me feel a little less alone.
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Darkwillow; I found myself lonely as well. Since you and I both are feeling this way, let’s not be alone together.
lonely buddies?
darkwillow; Yes. What has you feeling this way, if you’d like to discuss it.
because i have no friends and no one to talk to. I’m close to panic attacks right now and everything is so bad.. .. but uh,, how are you?
Darkwillow; just take easy smooth breaths to the best of your ability. In, … Out, … Repeat. What caused this onset? If you’d like to discuss it. We’ve all been there in some way or another. You’re not alone. I will be your friend, I stand on my word.
I’m a whole other story. Right now I can’t sleep. I laid in darkenss for an hour, then jumped back on here for a breif moment again. I will save me for tomorrow, when I post my story. For now let’s focous on you. If that’s ok.
Sorry if I take a while to reply, I will be back tomorrow, if I can’t reach out I will post with your name as the caption to continue where we left off. I might pass out at any moment. I’m running on 3 hours of sleep today.
Caused? Nothing much, just extreme anxiety and mass introversion. So i got out of highschool almost a year ago, sat alone every day, rarely said a word to anyone, and now I’m out of school. i work an extroverted job because no one wants to hire someone like me, i work under my dad at the moment. I don’t want to say i hate it, but it’s just not a fitting environment for me. I like small quiet places, not construction sites, everyone’s always yelling at each other, the blaming is so terrible. I don’t feel the pay is worth is either.
But going home from such a hard job and then what do I do? The normal hobbies, playing pvp in guild wars 2, piano, rpg maker. But eventually, after repeating this process every single day, I start to get lonely. Sure, I talk to people at work all day, but I don’t really care for them. and it just destroys my anxiety to talk to them in the first place. Not only do i have a quiet voice, i also have a speech disorder.. So surely i could talk to friend or something.
Haha, friends.. funny.. I’m not saying that i have nonnneeee, Just that it doesn’t seem like they reallyyy like me all that much. And sure, you could say that they probably do, and that im overthinking, and thats partly true, all i do is think about it.
And so im sitting here refreshing social media and typing in rants because i have nothing else to do with my life. I don’t know how i can go to work tomorrow like this.. Its been a while since ive been this bad.
Goodnight though. You don’t need to reply now, or ever really, im probably going to bed anyways. Dream about flying hippos, they’re pretty cool.
I’m a lonely son of *****. I have discovered that in life > when the smoke clears we really are just left standing alone. dealing with our own issues and not many people out there that care.
its sad. Life can be sad. Well I have become good at entertaining myself and chatting on the Internet on places like this on the web. that helps me feel a little less alone.