i feel nothing from the ones who “love me”

my parents say they love me, my family, my friends. but i cant feel it. maybe they dont show it to much. but i just know my family gives everyone else more attention then they do to me. i pretend everything is fine, i put on a fake smile for everyone to see. i hope you understand that what they put me trough is not right. i get tired of hearing my name yelled. im like a stepchild to everyone. no one even knows where i am , or notice when im around them. i get complemented im pretty , smart, outgoing, and a one of a kind. i dont believe any of it. my mom or dad dont even spend 3 dollars on me. they spend more on everyone else. im not jealous, but i do get hurt when they should be making me happy, showing me care and love. well goodbye, for now .