I had a dream that I was having a discussion with my older brother and telling him > that my life is so hard that if most people would have to live my life that they would just Kill Themselves within 3 months. Then I told him that I just wanted to die.
SO what do you think this is. I am even suicidal in my dreams. I wonder if life is trying to tell me something. Maybe life is trying to tell me that I have a legitimate reason for being suicidal and that maybe I should go do it.
who knows. this thing called life is not easy.
I wish somebody would pass out the n e m b u t a l mixed with c y a n i d e LOL thats a cocktail I could look forward too.
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PhantomCitizen43,
i’ve had dreams like that, you dream what you think about, no surprise, think about girls instead 🙂 EERRROOOWWW!
No it’s not easy, but we only have a few years to go anyways, n e m b u t a l mixed with c y a n i d e !!! yuck! Did you ever think about what would happen if you drank that?
you’d grab your throat and spin in circles!!! screaming AWWWWWW!!! AWWWWWWW!
Then fall on the floor doing the fish! flopping all over AWWWWW!!! AWWWWWW!
Turning all kinds of colors!!! eye’s bulging out!!! like a bug that just got sprayed with raid!!!!
No thanks! I want my last thoughts to be a little less dramatic and peaceful.
Yeah > you are right. Maybe I should think about chicks before I sleep. Maybe I will get laid in my dreams. LOL That would be good since I haven’t had any recently in my regular life. LOL
Well Id like to try the N and C cocktail. Yes I think it would be a little painful going down but once its there > it would put me to sleep and make sure I don’t wake up.
Dreams at night are weird. I wonder if life trys to talk to us through our dreams.
But yeah…. I have a lot of really emotional dreams and this one today about the suicide thing was very real and straight forward…. and that is how I feel in my real life.
Well thanks for your input.
I actually do have good things to look forward too. So I probably wont be ofting myself anytime soon.
but later is what I am worried about. LOL
thats why I hang out here at the SP forum. I wrestle with this kind of thing.
I have weeks I do good > then a few days I don’t do so good. Its like an ongoing battle.
LOL
oh yeah i’m fighting that shit all the time comedy is the only thing that makes things better.
I am suicidal in my dreams. I have insomnia so I don’t get much sleep anyway. But if I do sleep I try to clear my mind as much as possible beforehand, and not think about life. Often I wake up when I’m about to kill myself. Try and think about anything else or it gets worse. It’s like you can’t remember which suicide attempts were in your Dean’s and real life.
Yeah > I have had dreams where I go off and jump off a cliff or something…. and just before I hit the ground and die > I wake up. SO yes, in my dreams I get close to death > but never get to die. I just wake up and get back to my craploa life again
Go to bed, try to forget, nearly kill yourself in your mind, get up to your crap. That’s how our lives work.
It is really not a surprise. It happens to me all the time. When I do get some sort of sleep. Our dreams bring into play a lot of what we think about most during the day. What runs through our minds the most or what makes us feel the most powerful. Memorable thoughts and feelings reappear in dreams. It is a way that your mind repeats them so it can remember them easily. As if you had a hard time remembering…
It doesn’t mean it is a bad thing. Maybe if you were talking to your brother abut it in your dream it is a part of you saying you want to talk to someone. A small per of you reaching out for help and a little bit of hope. I see nothing wrong with that.
I feel the same way, that if anyone else traded places and lived in this broken body for any length of time, they wouldn’t be able to handle it at all.
Maybe we ended up with these bodies because (so far) we HAVE been strong enough to handle it.
As stupidly cliche as it sounds, lately I’m only able to take one day at a time.
If someone showed me how much of a struggle my next year was going to be, with every ouch and every struggle mapped out like a movie script, I probably wouldn’t be able to handle it.
24 hours is bad enough sometimes.
You and I both know how bad it can get.
Yeah I agree with you. One day at a time is all I can handle too.
that seems to be the best way to go about it.
keep on keeping on