I’m tired of fighting, tired of trying, tired of telling myself “don’t give in” when it’s all I want, it’s all I think about when I’m alone. Planning out how I’ll do it, the before/during/aftermath affects.
I can’t talk to anyone, really wouldn’t want to if I could. But it kills me, no one sees my pain….not my family, my best friend, my ex, my co workers…no one sees how hard I’m fighting to not give up.
I wish my ex realized she’s putting me in the ground, I wish she’d care.
No one should have to suffer so much for past mistakes. I hate myself everyday for hurting her…someday REAL soon I can tell I won’t be able to take no more pain.
I don’t want to die, just tired of my pain…I need my girl to see it before it’s too late and save me before she loses the one person who loves her unconditionally….FOREVER