As a society it is survival of the fittest. Sure i might be able to go up to someone and ask just to talk. I feel like that option might work better than going to your actual family\friends. I wish i had a fairy godmother. I cant afford a car, i just need a hug, whatever the issue. If someone was genually interested, concerned, and wanted to help you. But what do people do these days? Oh id really like to talk but im busy. There is always an excuse. People do not slow down. There is no compassion for your fellow man. Not to mention how bad the stigma is surrounding mental disability. My family is from a generation where you just held everything in. I guess i’m just a ***** for feeling or wanting to express emotion right? That is the mentality of the world. Shove it down. Dont talk about it. Hang in there champ
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Yeah it dawned on me lastnight that all I needed was a hug from another human being. No chance of getting one though. Ugh I don’t care just one more emotional feeling to fuel the fire so I can hang myself.
I’d like a hug too, preferably from someone I both find attractive and like in a romantic sort of way. Unfortunately, Lord knows when/if I’ll ever get that.
If i were there i would hug the shit out of you. Gently though. A hug can actually save a life. I wish someone would juat hug you and talk to you all the while holding on. Personally that would ease some pain in me but my mind is made up
Thanks skitz kitty for being nice and saying that. I appreciate the sentiment it even made me cry. Even though all I did was read it. yeah a hug would ease a bit of pain but then the hugger would leave again and your back to your lonesome self. So yeah hugs wouldn’t change much.
Hugs all day long for you kitty <3 xx
I can relate to how you feel. I’ve always found the whole pact thing most preferable when it comes to suicide. Not as in i pressure someone into doing it such as making them feel bad but as in a mutual understanding that in our last moment we were happy together and that cannot be betrayed nor lost. In my situation i think of it as terminal, though not in a medical since. it will be forever unchanging, unfixable, unmanagable.
I just read your other posts. I’m sorry you feel your life is so shitty. I envy you though you do have something to live for you have children and a baby. I wish I had a baby to love. ln my opinion people who are parents should not have the freedom of choice to kill themselves. that’s just the opinion of a Fucken nobody though. Wish we could discuss methods here. I’m so done its not funny. My situation is unfixable because all I want is a soulmate somebody to love me, hug me blah blah blah God where the fuck is my mate! ?
I would suggest looking for different people to be around.
Whenever I go to a meeting of the Society of Friends, hugs are freely available. Whenever I work with Habitat for Humanity, people I don’t know are willing to listen to me wrestle with moral and ethical conundrums.
Society is not based on survival of the fittest. If you look at it that way then you are buying into labels promoted by the very people I imagine you probably despise. Look beyond the rhetoric. Reject materialism as a yardstick. Have nothing be something.
Really in my current state there is no way i can be around people let alone meet new people. I live in the country with no car no money. The only reason i had a place to live is because my gf and i were paying in a place. I am currently on the couch of the people i loathe. This is not a narrow minded sight. I am good at solving problems and am seeing how i feel from an objective point. I may be locked up for a crime for 15+ years soon. It was commited not of my own fruition. Though i have not been charged yet i cannot wait a year or more to see when my life will be over. Id rather take that into my own hands. But not being able to see my kids will be the worst part. Sure i could see them. But now not love on them. Hold them. Play with them.. Teach them.
Yeah I live with my parents in the country, surrounded by nothing but bush and ocean. I haven’t had a job for 2 years. Im just lucky to have a car. I don’t have any friends only my drunken druggie mates who are alright for a good time but no hugs or depressing life storie support. So yes my decision is justified and it really is the only answer.
Sorry about the jail thing, want to say what you did? 15 years is a bit steep. Yeah just thinking about it I think if I had to go to jail for any amount of time I’d seriously consider killing myself. I hope you don’t go to jail though and don’t kill yourself. Live for your babies and be the dad you never had. Idk…
15 years is the minimum sentence id rather not go into detail but i was drugged at a bar causing me to commit this crime. With my horrible experience with being in an institution (not sure if you have sen my original post) being locked up is worse than death. Its tortuous end maddening. I cant prove this and the fear is one deciding factor in this. I was never tore up about not having parents. More so the dr ons i got after that. You can replace them with god people in your life but the problem is i he’d had none of those.
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