Time that I move on from here, after nearly six years I feel I have brought everything i can to this place, with nothing left to give it is time i took my leave. It is time a new generation of users step up and fill the shoes of the old members. Alot of posts seem to go unanswered when they need answers, and alot of posts that dont need answers get too many. For a while that was okay, because there were others who took up the slack, but most of those have moved on now, so it is the responsibility of the current members to step up and give the in depth advice and care that was once so prevalent here. This is a community for those who need help, so give help to those who need it most, not just the most popular or the ones you like the most, more members now need to step up to the roles of caregivers and Councillors. this place is too much like a place to hang out and shoot the breeze, laugh at videos and whatever, which is cool, but for everything that goes ignored, everyone who doesnt get the help they need because those that can give it spend their time where its not needed. Helping others is utterly exhausting, i get that, but unless more people make the conscious effort to give heartfelt advice and help then this place will loose more and more members. it is, above all else, a place for suicidal people to get help, not a facebook. Ive served my time here as a helper, longer than nearly any other user, ive helped more people than i can count, got people through college. talked people out of their D-Day and turned lives around. I can leave here knowing i have done more than my fair share for this place. im not around as much as i used to be, in the hopes that others would fill that space, i wish i could say i was 100% happy with the result. But its time for me to move on, past time really. i hope someone takes up the mantle.
Step it up SP, take care of each other, thats what this place is for.
Peace & Love for the last time,
Procel.
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Goodbye Procel, I hope you get the most out of life that there is to get, and thank you for your contribution and crucial support in your long stay here. Also, I hope we’ll be able to live up to the vision that you outlined. We’ll endeavor to help each other, or I hope so.
Hey procel! This is an intense post. So strong. If you recall we talked about this a few days back. Really hope you are good with yourself and have a good life. Take care man and stop by from time to time to say hallo on our small group on kik.
I agree with you on some thing. Yes I have noticed recently that a lot of posts that need replies badly dont always get them. You are right, I think we all need to do better to attend to peoples posts… especailly the ones where people are really in a bad situation and reaching out for help.
When I first came here I came here because I needed help. Later on I came here to help others. Sometimes I come here just because I have a connection with this place and the poeple here and I do just shoot the shit sometimes. I think your right. We need to not forget that people need help and we should do more to offer counseling and an ear to listen to posts that might not be the popular one. Thank you for bringing that up.
thanks for all your help over the years. I hope that you come back from time to time.
good luck with your life.
so many kind people here. i just cant be with people though. it makes me sick
like physically
How do you get along in life and not be around people.
DO you live alone and just avoid people all together??
Alone time an be good. But it is a good thing to learn to be around people sometimes at least.
my reason for coming here was to see others like me
Yeah I agree with you. I sometimes just come here.. because I like being around people who are just like me. People who are struggling with life and with living. WHen I come here > sometimes its the only time where I don’t feel all alone. Because in my regular life > it seems like I have things 10 times harder then everybody else… and thoughts of depression and suicide sometimes pop up > but often most people don’t understand. I like to come here where there are others who understand. Others who share my struggles. I really get comfort from that.
Hey Procel, I remember you commented on my (now deleted) first post. You’ve always been very helpful to others and I will always appreciate the help you’ve given me.
Thank you! I wish you the best! 🙂
Thanks for being there for me, for so many others here. I wish you the best of luck, my friend.
I don’t know you well, but I wish you luck in all your endeavors. I am guilty of coming here just to shoot the shit but only because my Facebook friends wouldn’t get it or use it against me. SP is a place I feel comfortable and I try to do my part to support.
Proc, I hope I’m not too late to catch you. Every once in a while I check this site for any word from respected old friends like you. You’re probably the last. This post really pissed me off because I completely agree with what you said; I’ve watched SP lose its valued, thoughtful members from a slow hemorrhage, and at the same time I’ve seen new members, desperate souls, ignored or even disrespected by the SP clique that has taken over and made this into whatever it currently is… definitely not a place about suicide anymore. It’s more about socializing.
I don’t know if the sp socializers realize that their in-jokes, protected posts, and exclusive chatter is alienating the people for whom this site was originally designed. I see desperate cries for help met with 0 or 1 comment, and half the time the comment is some condescending, dismissive shit. Meanwhile if you join the popular crowd and post a picture of your asshole you’ll get buckets of love and attention.
Note for people to think about before posting anything: ask yourself, does this belong on a suicide site, or would it be more appropriate to post it on facebook, instagram, deviantart… or heck just EMAIL it to your friend rather than gum up what was once a great suicide discussion board. You see, the problem is, unlike other topic-specific forums, it isn’t divided into subforums like “Off Topic” or “Fun and Games”. Everything gets dumped on page 1 here. I relate this to gumming up the 911 lines with calls like “I’d like to order a cheese pizza please”.
In parting, Proc, I just wanted to tell you that YOU are one of the individuals who helped me claw my way out of suicidal depression. The things you said resonated within me, things about fighting back, demanding a better life, and NEVER saying “I’ve had enough, I quit” because the fact is as long as our heart muscles are pumping, there’s at least 1 muscle inside us that refuses to quit. I love that attitude you had, as well as many other members (long gone, I assume) over the past few years.
Don’t get me wrong, I see there are a few new members who are exceptional, who take suicide seriously, not some sort of joke to talk about over the water cooler whilst sharing the latest fart jokes. But alas their posts and comments are buried in the flood of Suicidebook.
Proc, keep fighting the good fight, albeit elsewhere. That’s what I’m doing. I believe people like you and me who have been through hell and back on bats wings, we have a responsibility to do what we can to others who too have fallen. That’s what this site was like once. Suicidal people and ex-suicidal people sharing their thoughts. It would’ve been nice to see this place return to that, but with another great soul like yourself gettin the hell outta Dodge, I think the chances of that are slim.
In summary, because it’s good form to end on a joke, maybe it’s appropriate or maybe it’s just random…. A flight attendant starts going into her spiel about where the life vests and exit doors are located. Then, getting fed up, she says, “Aw hell, in the event of a crash just grab onto my ass because I’ll be the first one off this deathtrap”