There has to be people older than me on here. I just really need advice. Im 21 years old. Since i was 13 I’ve been really depressed and fucked things up for myself. I didnt do good in school. Well i couldn’t i had to many crazy thoughts and no motivation. I didnt think i would need it later. Now i cant get into college. I feel so hopeless. It sucks because all they see is a piece of paper from high school and that defines me. Its been 4 years since ive graduated and no luck. I got help for depression last year september and with that i made up my mind that i actually wanted to go back. i feel so shitty everyone else has moved on but im just at home doing nothing. I still am getting help for depression but i stopped taking the medicine. Getting off of it was horrible i had a headache for almost a month and my eyes would hurt. Well i just want advice from someone who’s lived longer than me. Is college worth it? Im wasting my life ? im trying so hard not to feel like how i used to before but i feel like i cant do anything and its my fault. Ive tried getting a job too im not so lucky with that. I get real nauseous from standing to long and im getting treated for social anxiety too. I just feel like i dont have any options. this is so stressful
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Star,
I’m definitely not much older than you (22) but I’m going through almost the same exact thing as you are now. I would suggest you to go to community college for two years (they’ll accept you) and then transfer to a four year university. That is if you really want to go to college. College is not for everyone and it’s worth is up to you. My situation is slightly different from yours as I flunked out of college and want to try again but doubt anyone will let me in. And now I feel completely stuck in life. But you? You went to receive help and I say now if you feel like you can really do this, go for it. Just stay motivated. When you’re feeling like the depression is coming back while in school, go talk to your schools therapist. They’re going to help you. You can do this. You got this. I just got caught up in depression and never got help and flunked everything. But going back is something that will be worth it to me. And it sounds like it’s worth it you.
Ive already tried community college. ? That’s the first one I’ve went to. Still I haven’t gotten in. Well my mom really wants me to go and I also kind of miss studying. Besides the people I loved school. I just stopped caring for my grades :/ I really regret that. Thanks though I dont have many people to talk to that can give me advice on this since none of my family has ever went to college. You probably can go back too. If you’d want. I belive in you ^.^ lol grades shouldnt measure someone intelligence. Especially if theyre going through something ?
@Stardust95, and @Whateverbell,
I’m also in the same boat, failed 2 of my classes twice, was forced to go back home and transfer to the shit university at home, took them 6 months to evaluate my transcript, got barely any credits transferred, and was made to basically start all over again, and then depression and now I just feel like I can’t do it……
I believe you can do it, if you really set your mind to it. Whateverbell gave some good advice. I second that same advice. I hope you can figure out your next step, college of not. Wishing you the best.
That sounds so frustrating. 🙁
Your still young enough to finish school and realize your dreams. Just don’t let anyone tell you what those dreams should be learn now to live for you. School is worth it don’t get side tracked even if takes a few years and only doing it a few classes at time don’t wake up 20 years from now and say would of should of could have that’s worse then trying and failing eventually trying will get you to were your supposed to be
Stardust,
I’m 22 and in a similar situation. If this is really what you want to do, I believe you can do it! I know it’s hard to find the motivation but you just need to be determined to succeed in this, and I know you will. I know what it’s like to see everyone you know move on with their lives and you’re just kind of….here not doing much of anything. Please try to get help for the depression again. And try for another college. You can do this! If you ever wanna talk, or need a friend, let me know 🙂
I’m 30 years old now, and I’ve only just recently graduated from college with an associate’s degree. I’ve suffered from bipolar disorder, various anxiety disorders, ocd, and eating disorders for my entire life. All of these things have made it extremely difficult for me to finish college. I’ve dropped out, switched majors, and taken time off numerous times.
I have a hard time following through on things, but I do feel a sense of accomplishment after having completed my degree and now I’m working in a related field, and have been for two years. I struggle constantly with my mental and emotional issues, but I actually do feel good about myself for what I’ve accomplished by staying in school.
My advice to you would be to find a doctor who can help you, take your medication. Try to work towards something positive… Like a degree, and getting your health in order. It will be a constant struggle, you will fail often and it will hurt, you will compare yourself to others and you will feel like you’ve come up short. But in the end you will have accomplished something big, which is huge for people like us who struggle so much.
If you have Skype or something and you want to talk just let me know. <3