i used to hate the pain. Now, i am it. Strange. This time it only took a year. It only took 13 cuts. 13. Huh. My new lucky number. I dont even wince, i just smile. Kinda fucked if you ask me. And the one person that could stop this doesnt even like me. God. I love him. Ryan m. Its not good to put full names on here. I dont care. I dont care about anything, or anyone nowadays. Except ryan. I sound like a crazy ex. Funny how life turns out. I used to be happy, now im just crazy. Which brings happiness to me. May irony never defeat me.