It’s 4:00 o’clock in Brazil. I can’t sleep at all. Today I have job interview. I have looked for a job for months and now I am in the deepest depression ever. Just can’t go there.
I pathetic, just pathetic. Why haven’t I courage to kill myself.?
I didn’t go. I am loser, who knows when I’ll have another chance. I’ll try to kill myself today again. I already try but didn’t work. Let’s know if it happens mixing another kind of medicines with alcohol. Hope it works. Sleep forever is all I need.
I need a job just as much as you, wanttodie. I went to my job interview, got offered the position then bottled it on the day I was mean’t to start. I felt ten times worse than I did before I applied ( and I was already suicidal then ) but i’m more stable at the moment, things did ease, of sorts.
You’ve done step one, you got an interview. Step two is something for you to think about further down the line. For now, just concentrate on getting occupying your mind as much as possible.
You weren’t ready. But in time…eventually…you will be.
Are you taking antidepressants, wanttodie ? Because if you’re not then you really must go to your GP and begin a course for now.
Everyone on SP is here for you ( as we are for each and every one of us ) and we must close ranks and fight all on together. You’re here with your family, pls don’t lose sight of that. You are certainly NOT a loser with any of your brothers and sisters.
Thank you Escalado. Yeah I take mirtazapine as antidepressant, but it doesn’t help me at all. I hope you can get a job, you deserve that for the nice and kind person you are.
By the way, where are you from? Your nickname sounds latin american
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Why can’t you go there? Force yourself to go there, no matter how shitty you feel. You have nothing to lose, and only things to gain.
SadPotato is spot on, wanttodie.
GO to the interview and report back here later informing us on how it went, pls.
I didn’t go. I am loser, who knows when I’ll have another chance. I’ll try to kill myself today again. I already try but didn’t work. Let’s know if it happens mixing another kind of medicines with alcohol. Hope it works. Sleep forever is all I need.
I need a job just as much as you, wanttodie. I went to my job interview, got offered the position then bottled it on the day I was mean’t to start. I felt ten times worse than I did before I applied ( and I was already suicidal then ) but i’m more stable at the moment, things did ease, of sorts.
You’ve done step one, you got an interview. Step two is something for you to think about further down the line. For now, just concentrate on getting occupying your mind as much as possible.
You weren’t ready. But in time…eventually…you will be.
*Hugs you*
Are you taking antidepressants, wanttodie ? Because if you’re not then you really must go to your GP and begin a course for now.
Everyone on SP is here for you ( as we are for each and every one of us ) and we must close ranks and fight all on together. You’re here with your family, pls don’t lose sight of that. You are certainly NOT a loser with any of your brothers and sisters.
Thank you Escalado. Yeah I take mirtazapine as antidepressant, but it doesn’t help me at all. I hope you can get a job, you deserve that for the nice and kind person you are.
By the way, where are you from? Your nickname sounds latin american