It has been super long since I’ve posted anything, but since then my life has been a fucking roller coaster and it’s ridiculous. I can’t even fathom how much I despise everyone. I don’t want to be around any social life and all I want to do is baracade myself in isolation. I honestly hate but have envy for the people that don’t understand. Depression and anxiety isn’t sadness or just stress, it’s a constant feeling of wanting to not be around anymore. Constant feeling like you just want to die. The way your heart beats, the way your mind races. Holding your hands to your head and thinking wtf is wrong with me. It’s a fucking painful thing to suffer with and I suffer with it everyday. So I am so sorry that I can’t get my life together, but everyone else around me are the reason I am this way. So take a look at what you’ve done to me before you tell me to ‘ get over it ‘.. Bet you won’t be telling me that when I’m dead. Anyways I would really like to talk to someone so talk to me.
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Dude I understand how yu feel , no one understand wat were goin thru nd its a waste of time tryin to get them to understand honestly wen I think about it, even tho I am lonely im the only person id rather be around that way I dont have to worry if becuz of how I feel inside if it bothers the next person
Seriously, sometimes I’ll think to myself like okay they wanna understand and they wanna know. I go to tell them how I feel and bam, I get some whole bs lecture or how life has been for them. I can’t keep anyone close to me because I feel like a constant worry to everyone else. They think because I have problems that I’m crazy and gonna lash on them.
I am much more content by myself then I am with anyone else, basically just like you said.
Agreed, even the ones that are the closest to me don’t understand what I’m trying to say when I tell them “I really don’t want to be here anymore.” My closest friend suffers with the same mental illnesses that I do, and she doesn’t even have much to say when I tell her I wanna die. That’s why you come here. We all live with this, we understand you. I can’t tell you how to solve your issues, but you can suffer through them with us instead of on your own. I know that it’s sometimes better to be alone, but that’s usually reserved for when I need to do some drugs or sit on the edge of a building.
Jess yu are one of the realest ppl on here, hello
Yea thats how it is for me too I feel bad becuz I cant bring good energy wen im around my friends , I cant bring up anythin good to talk about