Born into this world without a voice or say

Today I woke up in pain, mental and emotional pain. I just didn’t feel right this morning and there wasn’t anything wrong or anything that, ” triggered ” me.. I went to school and my boyfriend was asking me what was wrong and what happened. I continue to say nothing and then he says once again, well something has to be wrong.. I looked him dead in the eye, broke down and said ” there doesn’t have to be a reason when you’re depressed ” and that is what people don’t get. Unless you know what it’s like to actually suffer with depression and anxiety mixed with borderline personality disorder then you just don’t get it. I am trying to get better but when you’re constantly being put down and all the other million reasons why I feel like this it is fucking hard. I have a hard time not cutting or self harming in anyway. I made a promise but I am at the point where I just don’t know if I can keep it anymore. I am sorry for being me and I am sorry I was ever brought here. That’s after I wasn’t even wanted.  ” Born into this world without a voice or say “