Hey there. I once was you. I once had a gf in your shoes. It is hard to trust people. Its really hard, especially if you seem to be getting burned over and over. Friends though are a good thing. Just take it slow. Offer to hang out for an evening, shoot hoops, play video games, go to an arcade, just small things that wont mean you are there for hours on end to where you feel trspped but long enough so that you can see if they are friend material. After you do that enough a select few with pop up and youll really like them. Its going to be hard to trust them but just take it slow. Lend them something small if they ask. A game, 5 bucks, just somethinh small. And wait to see what happens. If they have good character theyll be honest and pay you back, give it back, etc. Or you could tell them small things that arnt really important but youd like for them to keep to them selves. See what happens. Im just saying to take it slow and with baby steps. Friends help. I just recently got dumped. And my friend i havnt seen in years put me up for 2 nights so that i could have company and sleep better. Friends are absolutely great. The one last secret of friends is this. There are times that they need to go away. And its okay bud. Some times if you fight. Dont be scared to say sorry. And mean it. Or if you still believe different than them just say im sorry we argued. I believe this you believe that. Lets agree to disagree. And be ready to forgive. People are human and we make mistakes. But just know when to draw the line. And when a friend goes away to do their own thing, start their own life, its alright. They are still always going to be your friend. Even if you havnt talked in years they will remember you and take you in. So when a friend goes away abd they will eventually, dont say good bye. Because they arnt gone for good. They just arnt here right now. As far as self harm. Its a vicious addictive cycle. I did it for years. The only thing that helped was i had someone that knew i did it. (My ex) and it hurt her so i tried so hard to stop. And even tho i had the motivation to begin to stop, to keep stopping was all me. After you stop you can feel good about yourself for beating this thing. It wont happen over night. But each night when you are sitting there grasping that blade, just get up and go somewhere. Use your will power to say no! Not to night. Im better than this! And every time you beat it the guilt will become pride. You will still hurt. But you wont hate yourself for what youv done. If you are having issues with friends still. Come talk to me or anyone here. We are a band of misfits. And yes we cant hang out with you, but we are some of the few people who will bare our souls to you.