Lately, I don’t know why, but I have started to feel lost like theres no where left to go… As if even if I do make major life choices nothing will change. I’ve learned that there are only so much time you can spend time fighting until you just don’t care. I know I haven’t reached rock bottem, not yet anyways. I know how that feels but it’s strating to feel like everything’s going downhill and no matter what I do, who I talk to there’s no way to fix it. It’s been like this for a while I don’t remember what being fully happy… fully content with my life feels like.there are so few moments I get to feel happy that I’m starting to wonder if the good is worth the bad. There are so few reasons to stay alive these days and I’m already counting them down so far there’s 5. 5 reasons to stay.
And there already slipping away.