Been a while

Well the bad thoughts will be there until you deal with them-sometimes it helps to tell others what is bothering you (even a person you know, if you’re not comfortable posting about it here). Ya school/work can be a blessing at times due to the pattern/regularity it imposes on our life…makes us feel normal.

I’m also ‘alone’ in the sense that I have no significant other-but it’s not something that bothers or discourages me like it once did. I used to have that ideal fantasy of a perfect life till I quickly realized it’s a myth and irl people are far from perfect, sometimes they’re terrible.

Even when they aren’t bad, they’ll never live up to the dream-life we imagined for ourselves. While I’d like to find someone eventually I have more serious and pressing concerns-to become financially secure.

Once that’s done, then I’ll have the time and freedom to devote towards a significant other and I’m not really in a rush right now. Besides-in my current state, I don’t bring much to the table-I’ll have much more to offer (along with status) once I sort myself out.