i’m actually laughing right now, if only because i’m in pain. i owe over 3k in hospital debt. i have one month to pay up. i am disabled and jobless. i still live with my father and he’s refusing to help, telling me to just stick with doing chores for him and “get a job so you can stop being fucking useless, then your debt will go away”
i’m back to wanting to die. the day after i say i’m doing okay, i’m back to suicide. i’m laughing and sobbing. i want this to be over with
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I know money is real and all, but please don’t let it overshadow the fact that you still matter, and can probably scrape by somehow regardless of these problems.
I mean: some people shoplift just for the heck of it, right? I comfort myself by reminding myself that if I am ever utterly broke and starving, I could simply steal food. It is unethical and unkind, sure. But at that point, survival is at stake.
Just… don’t make problems bigger than they are.
First I gotta say, don’t commit suicide, at all costs. With that out of the way, I can tell you this. If I were in your situation, I’d be thinking the same thing. I really I had hospital debt too a couple years ago, but it happened because the bill got lost in the mail and never got to me. They never bothered to send a final notice or anything. Because of that I just chucked it up to my insurance covering the entire cost, but that wasn’t even remotely true. Now my credit is crap and I don’t qualify for even a credit card since the bill never got to me until years later. I thought of suicide too because it messed my life up. Luckily my parents bailed me out with paying off the ludacris amount of interest that accumulated over time. But if they didn’t, I know I would have killed myself by now because it’s too much. I hope you are tougher than me.