Your description has to be the most painfully accurate ways to think about people who are suffering internally, from their own demons, but want nothing more than to hurt no one and somehow, find a level of contentment with their own existence. I am afraid that I have progressed to the early stages of the dripping poison part. I used to be able to keep up such a good facade, one that people believed. I have had a few things that I used that made appearing like honey fairly easy around most people, even though there was nothing but poison under the surface. But as life has changed and progressed a bit for me, it seems like anything I say causes more people to worry, so I mostly keep to myself. I do that in an effort to decrease how much poison I expose those in my life to when I am around. I am not a teen anymore, I am 22. But, if you would ever like to talk about your situation in a more private setting, please email me at sacrificial_shaun @ yahoo.com (delete the spaces between characters). Sometimes, even if we are both going through similar things, talking it out in detail can yield a new perspective. At the very least, you most definitely are not alone here.