Does anyone else ever get the overwhelming feeling that your soul feels cold, empty, trapped, and broken? I feel like crying, but no tears are coming out of my eyes. I feel the weight of my entire life and I just want to give up so badly. I don’t know what to do anymore. This feeling keeps persisting along with every other feeling. Why won’t it stop? Why do I have to pretend to be perfectly fine and happy when I’m not? Why do I have to hide how miserable I am every single day? Why do I continuously fake everything? Every single laugh and smile isn’t genuine at all. Why can’t I just give up already? It’s not like I’ll achieve anything anyway. It’s not like I’ll make a difference. There’s nothing special about me. Why do I feel so stuck in my own life?
I’m sorry… I’m not your hero anymore.
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Yes I do. The self hate is too much so much that I sometimes feel I’m not even welcome here. No work no dreams why have them.. when there’s nothing left then sob and think about ways to die find one and die.. you know the illusion that was set into our minds about life is destroyed and that hurts us the most.. we keep stopping the death date to give one more chance to think we are going wrong life is meant to be beautiful… this illusion fed into us by the society gets stuck in our subconscious and makes it hard to believe life is pointless.
You may not feel like a hero at the moment, but you’re fighting. And THAT makes you MY hero