It never gets better, it hibernates, at best. People who help are liars and hypocrites and even they admit to themselves that at the end, it never gets better and all we have is the darkest recesses of our own fucked up minds. Rejoice in your suicidal ideation, for that alone is truth, truth laid bare and blatant. Rejoice for there is nothing left but the bare truth.
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It might not get better of its own accord, but there are things you can do to make it get better.
P.S. Procel! Long time no see.
@muspelhem I’m done trying bud, I just don’t have the fight in me anymore, so falls procel I guess.
Glad to see ur still around.
Dude I don’t know if I buy that.
And it’s pretty vague as to what you mean. What doesn’t get better? Life? What about life?
Do you mean relationships? What about them?
I need details brah.
As for suicidal ideation being truth, I think that’s totally untrue. My evidence? Well, consider
the fact that humanity is a social species. Genetically we are programmed to socialize and
protect the herd and to procreate and live. Obviously nobody is born to just die without experiencing true emotional connections. Nobody is wired that way. So, to me, that is inherently untrue.
Secondly, what I believe you’re talking about is life in general. I’m assuming you’re somebody who struggles with feelings of loneliness. That’s just my assumption. I could be way off base.
But if that’s the case, consider the fact that perhaps you have some mental alarms going off in your brain that you’re alone. And you shouldn’t be. That’s the social aspect of our brain. It’s necessary in humanity so we can work together, make buildings, develop societies, use language, etc. It’s the reason why humanity is the height of evolution on this planet in terms of complexity and advancement.
So really you have a biological response akin to pain, warning you to reconnect. So, my suggestion before you hit “accept” to those terms and conditions that say that suicide is the only way out- I’d say stop expecting people to help. Let’s be real, most people aren’t adequately skilled enough or prepared to assist when people are suicidal or depressed. In many ways, we’ve developed too fast socially and the world needs time to catch up. So for the time being, maybe instead of expecting to be helped, maybe flip that around and realize that you’ve got an insight that’s more unique and advanced than people who haven’t experienced that complex emotion. They probably need your help to get them on your level.
But that’s just my opinion.
Don’t give up just yet. There’s people who need that insight that you’ve got. Even if you’re bummed and feel like shit, you’ve got a special perspective that cannot be valued enough. In my book, I’d even equate it to a rare treasure to have that kind of view. Because when you put it to an active use and actually USE it to reconnect and benefit others, you’re fulfilling your genetic need to connect and better the herd. At least, that’s what has helped me immensely.
Sorry things are so rough for you right now.