Pointless…

Basically my dad walked out on me and my mum when I was 7 and left us with a load of debt. My mum had a drink problem and I often had to put her to bed and take care of her by myself from the age of 7. I would walk home from primary school wondering what state my mum would be in. When it got too much for me I went to stay with my favourite person in the world, my great aunt in the country, and one morning when I was staying with her I watched her die from a heart attack. I had to phone an ambulance and give her mouth to mouth at the age of 10 but it was too late. My step dad moved in when I was 12 and I absolutely hate him. I was bullied in the first year of high school and often made excuses to stay off. I went to college and dropped out because I despised it. My grandad died from cancer two months ago. I then started to shut myself away in my room… and two years later here I am. My mum has beaten her drink problem and has tried her best to help me but im too fucked up and completely beyond help. There’s my story.