The end

So after that lovely note on how I’ve been with Andrew since 7th grade, well were not together anymore.

After high school, i moved to San Francisco to be with him cause he became a carpenter over there. After being up there for two years, we decided to move in together. We lived together for one year in our cute little apartment on James Donlon, with our two puppies, Mamas & Papas. We had our ups and our major downs but in the end, we loved each other. Or at least i did.

Ive always had problems with his dad, and i never really understood what i did to make him hate me. But his dad decided to move up to San Francisco too and he was nice to me up until he met this ***** name Ami. She did everything she could to tear Andrew and i apart. I always had a bad feeling about her since the moment we met her. She started dating his dad after they met on tinder on their first date! She looked through his dads phone and went psycho on him the second day they were talking. I knew she was bad news but i couldn’t control who his dad wanted to be with. I was just worried for my relationship with Andrew since i didnt get along with her. She made his dad move in after only talking for 3 months. She was beyond crazy.

After our lease was up, we didnt want to renew it since they were raising the rent extremely high. So we had no choice but to move into his dads place with Ami. We only lasted three weeks their because Ami thought it would be a good idea to hook Andrew up with her coworker behind my back. One day, some girl from her work came over and they didnt introduce me to her, but they introduced Andrew. I already felt like something fishy was going on so when Andrew walked over to me after, I told him “who the fuck is that? you like her? you think she’s hot or what?” and he said “no, i dont even know her, she works with ami.” And i felt like i was overthinking it so i just dropped it. A week later, i just got into his dads house after college, and Amis daughter, Shelby decided to tell me that her mom was trying to hook up Andrew with the girl she brought over the house the previous week. Her name is Daisy (aka: home wrecker). So i flip the fuck out hearing that her mom talked trash about me to this girl Daisy and said I’m ugly, fat, and crazy and she wants Andrew and I to break up. So when Andrew got home from work, i was crying my eyes out and i said, “we have to leave, Ami is trying to break us up, we need to leave, i can’t live here anymore, she’s tearing us apart.” And Andrew said “no we can’t move we have to stay, dont let her get to you” and i said “Andrew she’s trying to hook you up with that girl who came over last week” and he said “dont believe that, we aren’t leaving” and i said “i have to leave come on lets go live with uncle bob” (who lived 20 minutes away from where we were). Andrew didnt want too leave and he said, if you wanna leave then go but I’m not. So that really hurt me, I walked out of the house, and went to our car and called Andrews mom in LA. I told her exactly what happened, and she said she was going to call Andrew to tell him that its not okay for his dad and step mom to treat me this way. About ten minutes later Andrew tells me to come inside the house cause we need to talk. In that moment i knew he was going to break up with me. I walked into our room and he said, i can’t do this anymore. I’m done for real this time and thats it…… I started balling. I only asked him three times not to leave me because i knew if i kept asking, it would push him more and more away. (April 5, 2016)

The next day, without any hesitation, i packed everything up, and my puppies and took them to move into Andrews uncles house. They were very mad at Andrew for letting it get out of hand and not being there for me. That night, i logged onto Andrews instagram, looked at his messages and saw Daisy’s name. He messaged her to come over tomorrow for them to hang out. My stomach dropped. I felt like i was going to throw up. I wanted to die. My heart sank into my stomach and it felt like it shattered into a million pieces. I just cried and cried. I told his Aunt and Uncle everything. They were there for me and i love them for that. The next day, Andrews uncle Bob went to work and I went to school. When i came home, his uncle told me that at work, he head that Andrews dad had been telling everyone on the job site that he been trying to get Andrew to break up with me since we moved into their place. His dad and his girlfriend kept telling him behind my back that there is this really pretty girl at Amis work and she’s better then me. Thats when they invited her over for dinner, so that Andrew can see if he likes her.

….. After all these years, how can he do me like that. How did i deserve this…

I was sooooo upset. I immediately texted Ami telling her off. Who the hell is she to come into this family and break people apart. How dare she tear my relationship apart. She has barely been around for almost a year and she pulls some type of shit like this on my boyfriend and i?! I was livid. I was hurt. I was done. But when she texted back, it was Daisy telling me to “come through”… She wanted to fight and I was more then happy to do so. I called Andrew and yelled at him saying how could he do this to me. How could he have this girl come over two days after we broke up! How could he do that to me! After all these years and we were getting along so well. I didnt see this coming. I told him that Daisy wants me to come over and fight so ill be over in a little and Andrew was telling me that she was leaving  and i said good she better get the fuck out before i come over.

They didnt  believe that i was still going to come.

My adrenaline was pumping full of anger.

When i got there, i opened the back gate and seen them in the living room on the couch KISSING. I flipped the fuck out. I felt like i was the hulk. I wanted to kill her. I was so mad. I slammed on the door telling them to open it. Andrew was in shock and especially Daisy. She was covering her mouth like, oh my god she is crazy. YES ***** IM CRAZY. I told her “Come through *****. Come outside *****. Show me whats up.” That ***** ran up stairs to tell Ami and Andrews dad that i was there. I told Andrew while he was at the door, how could you do this to me. How dare you do this to me. I can’t believe you. He said, you need to leave Savannah. Its over. Go home. And i said I’m not leaving anywhere till you come out here and talk to me. And so when Daisy walked back, he opened the door and she immediately locked it. I said THATS RIGHT ***** ASS *****. LOCK THAT DOOR. And Andrew was telling me to stop and i said no fuck that. We sat in the car while i cried to him of how fucked up this was. And he just kept telling me to leave and i said what did i do to deserve this. I love you… And he said i need to go. So i left.

My heart felt like it was ripped out and stabbed a million times.

I went back to Uncle Bobs and just cried my eyes out. That was how we ended. I never wanted us to end on bad terms but it seemed like they had it out for us to end bad. And Andrew was brain washed by them. Yes he could of been a man and said no, Im not meeting any girl, I’m with Savannah and that its. But he doesn’t know how to express his feelings. He lets people walk all over him and control him.

On top of all this, we had our first trip on a plane to Hawaii in June for my moms 60th birthday. We had this planned for 7 months already and now he wont be going.

I felt so alone, I just wanted to die.