I’ve been through a lot. I’ve failed many times. Believe it or not in a relationship and fucking that all up. I fight the urge to kill myself every day. It’s hard living up to others expectations. I’m fat. Since living with boyfriend I’ve gain 40 pounds in a year. I don’t feel pretty. Everything is falling apart. I’m not good enough. My boyfriend deserves a better gf my mom and dad deserve a better daughter. I plan on killing my self today after a family get together because I can’t do it anymore.
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Hey, sorry for all the things you’ve suffered. I hope you succeed in whatever direction you went. I’m also going to end it tomorrow.
You know i think you’re good person and there is nothing wrong with you. Thing is thet you don’t have to live for sake of anyone since you don’t feel that you owe them. So just may try to be for yourself. Think about everything than and it might help. So think about. If someone is thinking that they deserve more from you and don’t like you whoever you’re and whatever you do it’s not your problem because to change personality isn’t something easy and necessary. Don’t force yourself for others sake. Live for yourself. Its your life.
You can only say what’s right and what’s wrong to yourself and not anyone else. Nobody should judge you because they fucking get pleasure of that.
Only you know yourself and others are guessing.
And if someone told you something about your personality or weight it’s probably time to cut them of your life. You’re right it’s hard to live for others expectation. But you don’t have to take that unnecessary responsibility.