Hi guys, been thinking of you. I have had to step back for a while and have very limited access to internet so staying in touch has been difficult but I miss you guys and our conversations.
Today: I just cannot stop crying, after a sunny weekend it seems I have turned with the weather, though the rest of the time I’ve only TRIED to feel okay, you know almost like keeping up a pretence for the benefit of others and in some ways to try an help myself but oh well it was due to fall apart.. Still alive, still hanging in there by my fingertips.
Past week: Attempts: 0. Thoughts: Many. Self harm:1. Alcohol/Narcotics: Some. Cannot tell if this is genuine progress within myself or if this is just apethy; today I choose optimism- let’s say I’m doing okay *pats self on back*.
LOVE TO ALL XXXX
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Well, well, look who showed up ! Good to hear from you !
(BTW, this is Einsamkeit, reincarnated as Waldschläfer)
Many missed you during your absence. Did you get your living situation worked out ? What else is new ?
BTW, I wrote a shout out post, to thank some special people here … I would love for you to make your mark on it 🙂
suicideproject.org/2017/03/shout-out-to-some-folks-here/
Helloooo! thanks very much, I did also see your other comment on Katrose’s post 😛
Living situ still not changed but tryng to get on top of it (need to be more proactive).. the link is blocked on my Mum’s laptop but as you can see i can navigate the site perfectly well perhaps if you comment on the specific post I could access it via the comments section? Missed you too, hrrrrm.. ‘things that are new’.. not much really, my hair is no longer green decided it was time for a change so it is black underneath sectioned diagonally so the very front bits which frame my face are black as well and the rest on top is a bright and deep red… If only I were as good at articulating my life as I am my in my vanity/ aesthetics.. Going to a place called Shelter on my way back tomorrow morning (Im at my mum’s) to get some advice and a women’s help orgnization are working with me so fingers crossed I will be back on my feet soon. I’ve perfected my CV and looking to get back into work so trying to find small, independant businesses to work for to ease me back into the swing of things. How aout yourself? I envy you living near woodland. my mum told me I’m a quarter irish the other day whilst we were watching a beautiful nature documentary- if i am ever able i would love to search my ancestory and my soul and end up some where there sandwiched between the roaring sea and the rlolling hills and woodland. Eh, we can all dream… lots of love 🙂
Hey ! The hair sounds super cool ! I miss having the money for highlights 🙁 Good luck with the job search !
Nothing new here. Same shit, different day. April is a good time to go … looking forward.
To find my post, you can search (using the Search box at the top right corner of the page) for the words “Shout out”, and my post should be the first one listed as “Shout out to some folks here”.
Seen it, Bravo! Brilliant. Left you a comment. 🙂
Thanks. Yes ‘same shit different day’ is a phrase so often used in my vocabluary. I’m glad that we could catch up I have been thinking about you. X