sick life

why do i continue trying… what “just surrender”… that what everyone tells me… surrender to the life you have and start living it instead of living in denial… well the life i have fucking suck shit out of my asshole… every fucking day of this shit thing called life puts me closer to my grave… why live a life of agony… this shit sucks… i did not ask for life so why cant i take it away… fuck this fuck you fuck me and fuck this thing called life